Family, Friends & Supporters,
Welcome to my monthly message for December 2009.
Finally, my mother and Harry are home! What a journey this has been. I found myself in another situation where I received an education in an area about which I knew nothing (health care). I have to admit, I really do feel sorry for everyone who has to deal with a serious health problem and doesn't have insurance or doesn't have an advocate to help them while they are in the hospital. It is a tough situation that requires a lot of strength and patience.
For now, I am grateful to be at home with my mom, Harry and Karley (the German shepherd) my new BFF. Hopefully, someday soon, I will be able to express my gratitude to all of you who lent your support and helped me get through this challenge. On some level, I think the Lord and all the Angels knew I couldn't do it alone.
At the present moment, I'm a little down because I still haven't seen my daughters to let them know how much I love them. So I'm sorry for the unusually short message this month. Most recently, the Federal District judge just denied another request for me to have curfew so I could receive medical attention, see my dad and aunt, and talk with my close friend, Diane B. who is like a 2nd mother to me. The judge's decision is completlely unreasonable, because he is punishing me for being innocent. However, I guess there is a spiritual lesson in there somewhere.
Anyways, I need to snap out of it, because there is no need to play the victim's role in this. By the grace of God, I was able to help my mom through her ordeal and be there for my step father as best I could. Isn't that the Christmas spirit-to be able to help others? Even though I would be there-no matter what-regardless if it wasn't Christmas. Plus, I ended up meeting some very lovely nurses in the process. And yes, I have a new-found respect for nurses, because it takes a special person to commit to that role. Doctors, on the other hand-well let's just say, I'm working on it.
To all of you who continue to keep me in prayer, I would appreciate a special prayer on January 8th. That is the day my case is scheduled for conference in the U.S. Supreme Court. They will then decide whether ot not to take my case. This has been weighing heavily on my heart along with everything else. I would like to be there for my mom in the future; but if the court rules otherwise, then I must go back to prison. I believe the determining factor will be everyone staying positive, especially me. Who knows, maybe there will be a great ending to this saga.
In closing, I saw a really nice quote on the wall of the rehabilitation center where my mother was staying so I will share it with all of you. "IT IS NOT THE LENGTH OF LIFE, BUT THE DEPTH OF LIFE" (Ralph Waldo Emerson). Yes, that one made me stop and evaluate the depth of my life for a moment.
Okay, well I wish everyone lots of love this holiday season and may everyone be blessed with great opportunity in the up-coming year. If for some reason, I missed sending you a Christmas card ot thanking you for something you sent me, I truly apologize, because that is not my intention. I think the Dalai Lama says it best: "COMPASSION IS THE WISH FOR ANOTHER TO BE FREE FROM SUFFERING; LOVE IS WANTING THEM TO HAVE HAPPINESS." As I siad lots of love to everyone!
Until next month, take care and remember, "the answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences."
LOVE & LIGHT TO ALL
Michael O'Laughlin
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
November 2009 Monthly Message
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for November 2009!
Where do I start? Okay, most of you know by now that my mom was diagnosed with an aggressive uterine cancer in October. What should have been a normal hysterectomy surgery and then home for rehab and TLC turned into a nightmare with her getting a serious blood infection that settled on a heart valve and slowly became a life and death situation. She was admitted on November 1st and is still there 17 days later. Although there is some good news and that is they were able to treat the infection, and she received the surgery which was very successful. I hope to have her home in the near future so please keep her in your prayers. Also, please keep her husband, Harry in your prayers as well as he, too, is in the hospital.
Yes, in my wildest dreams I never though my case would get reversed, and I would be sitting in my mother’s home writing this message. However, I definitely never thought I would be at home and my mother and Harry would both be in the hospital. This just shows you life is full of surprises, and we need to make the best of the present moment.
The Lord says you will never be tested more than what you can actually handle. However, sometimes it seems we are tested beyond our limits. Fortunately, it is truly amazing how in the moment we think all is lost – some people see your time of desperate need and are moved by the spirit to lend a helping hand. Not only does my mom have some wonderful friends, but I realized I, too, have some truly great people in my life. Words will never express my level of gratitude to Pam, Barbara and Phil, and Liz for going so far out of your way to help me. You guys have been outstanding! In addition, I was blessed with the opportunity to finally bond with my step sister, Beth through this whole ordeal. She is a wonderful individual with the biggest heart, and it was so nice to see her show unconditional love to my mom – especially during a difficult time for her as well.
One thing is for sure, during my nine years in prison I had plenty of time to reflect about all my bad decisions and misgivings. It was an important lesson for me to learn that I have to keep my ego in check when taking things in life for granted. All in all, I’m glad I learned that important lesson, because I feel it was necessary with helping me to prepare for some of the challenges I would be facing. Another important thing I want to mention is I would never have made it this far without everyone’s love and support. The Lord has blessed me with some truly wonderful people, and I believe that was just another one of God’s gifts to me so I could cope with this temporary dilemma. Heck, the fact the Judge allowed me to visit my mom in the Rhode Island Hospital was a miracle in itself. So, yes I am extremely grateful to everyone even if I haven’t mentioned your name in this message.
Here’s a quick story I want to share with everyone and maybe you can relate to my story with your own life. My mom’s and Harry’s garden was filled with weeds that were about three feet tall, and they wanted to know if I could dig them up and turn the soil. I thought “no problem” especially after I took care of all the roots and vines entangled with the shrubs out front. Well, as the hours went by, and I dug and dug and pulled and ripped, I couldn’t believe all the roots. There were so many! Some were the size of a pencil while others were as thick as a soda can which required an ax for removal. It seemed the more I dug, the more roots there were. After the first day of total exhaustion and realizing I barely made it half way, I was now more determined than ever to finish the following day. No, I was not looking forward to another day of root pulling and digging! However, at the end of the second day as I graded the beautiful rich soil like when you frost a cake, I felt a great sense of accomplishment. It didn’t really hit me how strong this feeling was until I compared it with my life. In a spiritual sense or setting, I realized I had pulled all the old roots up in my life. I was starting new and starting fresh – and it does feel good especially when your heart is in the right place and you are trying to do the right thing. The power of intention is amazing!
I know this is a month of Thanksgiving and even though I will be alone without family, my heart is so grateful for everything I have been blessed with. Plus, I feel like this will be a great opportunity for me, my mom, and Harry to start new, start fresh, and look forward to the journey that is ahead especially the day I re-unite with my own daughters. As they say, “with God – all things are possible”. So yes, I’m going to keep the faith that all things will work out.
Lastly, I want to thank everyone for your kindness and generous gifts on my birthday. That was very thoughtful! Plus, I hope Liz, my mom, and Dave all had a wish come true on their birthdays this month.
My movie recommendation is “The Proposal”. It stars Sandra Bullock, Ryan Reynolds, Craig Nelson, Mary Steenburgen, and the pleasant Betty White. To say it best – this simply is a really good movie everyone can enjoy.
My profound quote is: “Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish”. (John Quincy Adams). A good friend of my mother’s – Nicole, sent this quote to her, and as I was reading it to my mother for inspiration and inner strength, I realized I have to use it because it is quite appropriate.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Until next month, take care and remember: “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love & Light to All
Michael
Welcome to my Monthly Message for November 2009!
Where do I start? Okay, most of you know by now that my mom was diagnosed with an aggressive uterine cancer in October. What should have been a normal hysterectomy surgery and then home for rehab and TLC turned into a nightmare with her getting a serious blood infection that settled on a heart valve and slowly became a life and death situation. She was admitted on November 1st and is still there 17 days later. Although there is some good news and that is they were able to treat the infection, and she received the surgery which was very successful. I hope to have her home in the near future so please keep her in your prayers. Also, please keep her husband, Harry in your prayers as well as he, too, is in the hospital.
Yes, in my wildest dreams I never though my case would get reversed, and I would be sitting in my mother’s home writing this message. However, I definitely never thought I would be at home and my mother and Harry would both be in the hospital. This just shows you life is full of surprises, and we need to make the best of the present moment.
The Lord says you will never be tested more than what you can actually handle. However, sometimes it seems we are tested beyond our limits. Fortunately, it is truly amazing how in the moment we think all is lost – some people see your time of desperate need and are moved by the spirit to lend a helping hand. Not only does my mom have some wonderful friends, but I realized I, too, have some truly great people in my life. Words will never express my level of gratitude to Pam, Barbara and Phil, and Liz for going so far out of your way to help me. You guys have been outstanding! In addition, I was blessed with the opportunity to finally bond with my step sister, Beth through this whole ordeal. She is a wonderful individual with the biggest heart, and it was so nice to see her show unconditional love to my mom – especially during a difficult time for her as well.
One thing is for sure, during my nine years in prison I had plenty of time to reflect about all my bad decisions and misgivings. It was an important lesson for me to learn that I have to keep my ego in check when taking things in life for granted. All in all, I’m glad I learned that important lesson, because I feel it was necessary with helping me to prepare for some of the challenges I would be facing. Another important thing I want to mention is I would never have made it this far without everyone’s love and support. The Lord has blessed me with some truly wonderful people, and I believe that was just another one of God’s gifts to me so I could cope with this temporary dilemma. Heck, the fact the Judge allowed me to visit my mom in the Rhode Island Hospital was a miracle in itself. So, yes I am extremely grateful to everyone even if I haven’t mentioned your name in this message.
Here’s a quick story I want to share with everyone and maybe you can relate to my story with your own life. My mom’s and Harry’s garden was filled with weeds that were about three feet tall, and they wanted to know if I could dig them up and turn the soil. I thought “no problem” especially after I took care of all the roots and vines entangled with the shrubs out front. Well, as the hours went by, and I dug and dug and pulled and ripped, I couldn’t believe all the roots. There were so many! Some were the size of a pencil while others were as thick as a soda can which required an ax for removal. It seemed the more I dug, the more roots there were. After the first day of total exhaustion and realizing I barely made it half way, I was now more determined than ever to finish the following day. No, I was not looking forward to another day of root pulling and digging! However, at the end of the second day as I graded the beautiful rich soil like when you frost a cake, I felt a great sense of accomplishment. It didn’t really hit me how strong this feeling was until I compared it with my life. In a spiritual sense or setting, I realized I had pulled all the old roots up in my life. I was starting new and starting fresh – and it does feel good especially when your heart is in the right place and you are trying to do the right thing. The power of intention is amazing!
I know this is a month of Thanksgiving and even though I will be alone without family, my heart is so grateful for everything I have been blessed with. Plus, I feel like this will be a great opportunity for me, my mom, and Harry to start new, start fresh, and look forward to the journey that is ahead especially the day I re-unite with my own daughters. As they say, “with God – all things are possible”. So yes, I’m going to keep the faith that all things will work out.
Lastly, I want to thank everyone for your kindness and generous gifts on my birthday. That was very thoughtful! Plus, I hope Liz, my mom, and Dave all had a wish come true on their birthdays this month.
My movie recommendation is “The Proposal”. It stars Sandra Bullock, Ryan Reynolds, Craig Nelson, Mary Steenburgen, and the pleasant Betty White. To say it best – this simply is a really good movie everyone can enjoy.
My profound quote is: “Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish”. (John Quincy Adams). A good friend of my mother’s – Nicole, sent this quote to her, and as I was reading it to my mother for inspiration and inner strength, I realized I have to use it because it is quite appropriate.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Until next month, take care and remember: “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love & Light to All
Michael
Saturday, October 10, 2009
October 2009 Monthly Message
Dear Family, Friends and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for October 2009!
Well – I have been out of prison for a little more than a month now, and I must say being free is awesome. Although I am still under “house arrest” which kind of sucks; it is definitely better than being in prison. Plus, I don’t think I could have it much better than what I have at the present moment. My mother and step father have been treating me like royalty. Their German shepherd puppy - which is a year old - has more energy and love than one person can absorb. So, I have definitely been blessed. In addition, I have been working around the house and in the yard staining their picket fence and trying to keep busy. Also, it has been really nice receiving visits from Dick, Barbara, Phil, Pam, and Liz.
Hopefully, the judge will allow my request to modify my release conditions to a curfew. Then, I can start to live my life like a person who is actually free. I should know by the end of this month.
I want to thank everyone for being so kind and thoughtful with sending clothes, cards, and letters. There have been some really generous people helping me start over and some who have always been there with love and support through prayer. Thank you so much! I can’t forget to give a special “shout-out” to Ralph in Oregon. You have been truly a thoughtful and kind “long distance” friend. Thank you and Happy Belated Birthday!
Okay, it is important I remind everyone this month is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. So please try and be conscientious about this issue. If there is anything extra you can do – please try and make the effort. Remember – think PINK even though orange is the traditional color for October.
It is hard to believe it has been nine years since I got to carve a pumpkin for Halloween. I used to carve them with my daughters, but I look forward to carving a pumpkin with my mom this year. I’m going to try and stay away from eating too much candy, and it will be fun seeing all the “trick or treaters”.
Sorry this month’s message is short. In closing, I know it is easy to take for granted looking at nature each and every day. However, I hope everyone will take an extra moment to appreciate the beauty of the foliage this month. It is supposed to be spectacular due to the sunny days and cold nights. It is just another one of God’s miracles.
Also before I end, I want to wish my Dad a Happy Birthday, and I hope to see you soon. Last but not least, to my good friend, Diane B., I miss you so much and I am sorry we haven’t been able to talk or see one another. Our time will come. I will always remember your love and support, and know we will see each other soon.
My movie recommendations will get better now that I don’t have any restrictions, and my cousin, Pam was kind enough to give me a gift for free rentals from Netflix. However, this month’s recommendation is “Disturbia” which is an action thriller that is not that great. However, I thought it would be appropriate for those of you who want to know what it is like to be under “house arrest”, and have to wear an electronic bracelet. The main star is Shia LaBeouf (Transformers), and he definitely played the role perfectly. Most of you will enjoy this movie.
My profound quote is: “The present moment is the field on which the game of life happens”. (Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth).
Until next month, take care and remember; “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All,
Michael
Welcome to my Monthly Message for October 2009!
Well – I have been out of prison for a little more than a month now, and I must say being free is awesome. Although I am still under “house arrest” which kind of sucks; it is definitely better than being in prison. Plus, I don’t think I could have it much better than what I have at the present moment. My mother and step father have been treating me like royalty. Their German shepherd puppy - which is a year old - has more energy and love than one person can absorb. So, I have definitely been blessed. In addition, I have been working around the house and in the yard staining their picket fence and trying to keep busy. Also, it has been really nice receiving visits from Dick, Barbara, Phil, Pam, and Liz.
Hopefully, the judge will allow my request to modify my release conditions to a curfew. Then, I can start to live my life like a person who is actually free. I should know by the end of this month.
I want to thank everyone for being so kind and thoughtful with sending clothes, cards, and letters. There have been some really generous people helping me start over and some who have always been there with love and support through prayer. Thank you so much! I can’t forget to give a special “shout-out” to Ralph in Oregon. You have been truly a thoughtful and kind “long distance” friend. Thank you and Happy Belated Birthday!
Okay, it is important I remind everyone this month is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. So please try and be conscientious about this issue. If there is anything extra you can do – please try and make the effort. Remember – think PINK even though orange is the traditional color for October.
It is hard to believe it has been nine years since I got to carve a pumpkin for Halloween. I used to carve them with my daughters, but I look forward to carving a pumpkin with my mom this year. I’m going to try and stay away from eating too much candy, and it will be fun seeing all the “trick or treaters”.
Sorry this month’s message is short. In closing, I know it is easy to take for granted looking at nature each and every day. However, I hope everyone will take an extra moment to appreciate the beauty of the foliage this month. It is supposed to be spectacular due to the sunny days and cold nights. It is just another one of God’s miracles.
Also before I end, I want to wish my Dad a Happy Birthday, and I hope to see you soon. Last but not least, to my good friend, Diane B., I miss you so much and I am sorry we haven’t been able to talk or see one another. Our time will come. I will always remember your love and support, and know we will see each other soon.
My movie recommendations will get better now that I don’t have any restrictions, and my cousin, Pam was kind enough to give me a gift for free rentals from Netflix. However, this month’s recommendation is “Disturbia” which is an action thriller that is not that great. However, I thought it would be appropriate for those of you who want to know what it is like to be under “house arrest”, and have to wear an electronic bracelet. The main star is Shia LaBeouf (Transformers), and he definitely played the role perfectly. Most of you will enjoy this movie.
My profound quote is: “The present moment is the field on which the game of life happens”. (Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth).
Until next month, take care and remember; “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All,
Michael
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Michael’s Monthly Message for September 2009
Dear Family, Friends & Supporters:
If you don’t believe in miracles, I can now attest that they do happen. In case you have not heard----I am a free man! Yes, I was released on September 1, 2009, and I must say words cannot express my gratitude to everyone who believed in my innocence. It’s been a long road and although there are some unnecessary conditions I must abide to; it’s absolutely unbelievable to be free again.
Normally, I would talk about current events or other trivial things that have happened in prison. But this month, I want to share two very different experiences that affected me so greatly, that I can honestly say I will never forget the month of August and September 1, 2009.
My first experience starting in early August was one of betrayal. I have heard about it, and even talked to people who have personally experienced it, but the old saying that you can’t truly understand what someone has gone through until you yourself have experienced it seems to be quite accurate. I was actually betrayed by someone I loved for and spent fourteen years of my life with. The pain was so great that I thru my back out like never before, I thought for a moment someone had stabbed me in the back, and I guess on a spiritual level someone did. Anyways, I learned that betrayal definitely hurts, especially when it’s from a loved one. I also learned that the only thing you can do for those individuals is forgive them. I now understand when you forgive someone it’s not so much for them as it is for you. That’s why it’s important to pray for them after you forgive them. So, for all of you who have been as unfortunate as me to feel the full force of betrayal all the way to the center of your heart, remember you have to forgive them otherwise your memories and trying to understand their actions will haunt you for the rest of your life.
Okay, my second experience was feeling what it’s like to be truly loved. Yes it was experiencing both sides of the spectrum, and I know “love” is almost the complete opposite of betrayal but what a wonderful experience to be truly loved. I felt so much love from family; friends and supporters that it made me realize that people are inherently good by nature.
I want to start by giving a big shout-out of gratitude to Dick for starting, running and maintaining that incredible website. In addition I want to thank Dick, Barbara and Phil for being at the U.S. Court House in Boston. It was so nice to see you guys sitting there supporting my release. Also big thanks to my lawyers Mr. Seiger, Ms Douglass and Ms. Trainor. Yeah, who would have thought my case from little Berkshire County would make it to the United States Supreme Court. I definitely have to give a big thanks to Justice Stephen Breyer who ordered my bail even while he was in the middle of Senator Ted Kennedy’s funeral. Also, a special thanks to the justices of the First Circuit Court of Appeals who wrote my decision which ultimately led to my freedom. And, to my special friends Diane B., her brother and Liz B. who helped my Mother and her husband raise my bail. Also, thanks to Barbara and my second cousin Pam for buying clothes. That was really nice because I walked out of prison with only the clothes on my back and nothing else.
But most importantly, I want to thank my Mother. I’m sure you have all heard the saying, “There’s nothing like a Mother’s love.” Well, I was blessed with witnessing it first hand during my nine years of incarceration. I was so proud of her when the judge asked my Mother to come forward and sit with my lawyer and me as he read the conditions of my release. I know she was happy when I was born and happy during some of the other accomplishments in my life. But rest assured nothing will ever compare to the true feeling of joy she felt when the judge explained to her that he was releasing me into her custody. The long hard battle had finally come to an end. We finally crossed the finish line! Although there is still one more hurdle (The U.S. Supreme Court’s final decision) for the high court of our land to reverse the First Circuit’s decision after what Justice Breyer in his final opinion on August 26th indicated, it would be like taking the trophy away from someone after they won an event. Who knows maybe the Attorney General won’t file a petition for certiorari? Yeah, I know wishful thinking. For now I’m just going to pray that this chapter of my life is over. I look forward to what God has in store for my future, and I will never forget this miracle. For it was truly “Divine Intervention.”
In closing, I want to say this experience has given me a different perspective on life. I hope to show my growth and what I’ve learned from the pain of this experience. Also, to those of you who don’t believe in my innocence or outright betrayed me, whether you want it or not---I forgive you.
Alright, what good would this message be without my famous movie recommendation and profound statement? Most movies don’t make me cry and maybe it just happens to be where I am in my life at the moment. But my movie recommendation is: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. All I can say is whoever wrote the script for this movie understands the gift of life. This is a must see!
My profound statement brings me almost full circle to when I started writing these messages. “Some lessons cannot be taught they must be lived to be learned: (ELEKTRA)
Until next month, take care and remember; “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences.”
Love & Light to All
Michael
If you don’t believe in miracles, I can now attest that they do happen. In case you have not heard----I am a free man! Yes, I was released on September 1, 2009, and I must say words cannot express my gratitude to everyone who believed in my innocence. It’s been a long road and although there are some unnecessary conditions I must abide to; it’s absolutely unbelievable to be free again.
Normally, I would talk about current events or other trivial things that have happened in prison. But this month, I want to share two very different experiences that affected me so greatly, that I can honestly say I will never forget the month of August and September 1, 2009.
My first experience starting in early August was one of betrayal. I have heard about it, and even talked to people who have personally experienced it, but the old saying that you can’t truly understand what someone has gone through until you yourself have experienced it seems to be quite accurate. I was actually betrayed by someone I loved for and spent fourteen years of my life with. The pain was so great that I thru my back out like never before, I thought for a moment someone had stabbed me in the back, and I guess on a spiritual level someone did. Anyways, I learned that betrayal definitely hurts, especially when it’s from a loved one. I also learned that the only thing you can do for those individuals is forgive them. I now understand when you forgive someone it’s not so much for them as it is for you. That’s why it’s important to pray for them after you forgive them. So, for all of you who have been as unfortunate as me to feel the full force of betrayal all the way to the center of your heart, remember you have to forgive them otherwise your memories and trying to understand their actions will haunt you for the rest of your life.
Okay, my second experience was feeling what it’s like to be truly loved. Yes it was experiencing both sides of the spectrum, and I know “love” is almost the complete opposite of betrayal but what a wonderful experience to be truly loved. I felt so much love from family; friends and supporters that it made me realize that people are inherently good by nature.
I want to start by giving a big shout-out of gratitude to Dick for starting, running and maintaining that incredible website. In addition I want to thank Dick, Barbara and Phil for being at the U.S. Court House in Boston. It was so nice to see you guys sitting there supporting my release. Also big thanks to my lawyers Mr. Seiger, Ms Douglass and Ms. Trainor. Yeah, who would have thought my case from little Berkshire County would make it to the United States Supreme Court. I definitely have to give a big thanks to Justice Stephen Breyer who ordered my bail even while he was in the middle of Senator Ted Kennedy’s funeral. Also, a special thanks to the justices of the First Circuit Court of Appeals who wrote my decision which ultimately led to my freedom. And, to my special friends Diane B., her brother and Liz B. who helped my Mother and her husband raise my bail. Also, thanks to Barbara and my second cousin Pam for buying clothes. That was really nice because I walked out of prison with only the clothes on my back and nothing else.
But most importantly, I want to thank my Mother. I’m sure you have all heard the saying, “There’s nothing like a Mother’s love.” Well, I was blessed with witnessing it first hand during my nine years of incarceration. I was so proud of her when the judge asked my Mother to come forward and sit with my lawyer and me as he read the conditions of my release. I know she was happy when I was born and happy during some of the other accomplishments in my life. But rest assured nothing will ever compare to the true feeling of joy she felt when the judge explained to her that he was releasing me into her custody. The long hard battle had finally come to an end. We finally crossed the finish line! Although there is still one more hurdle (The U.S. Supreme Court’s final decision) for the high court of our land to reverse the First Circuit’s decision after what Justice Breyer in his final opinion on August 26th indicated, it would be like taking the trophy away from someone after they won an event. Who knows maybe the Attorney General won’t file a petition for certiorari? Yeah, I know wishful thinking. For now I’m just going to pray that this chapter of my life is over. I look forward to what God has in store for my future, and I will never forget this miracle. For it was truly “Divine Intervention.”
In closing, I want to say this experience has given me a different perspective on life. I hope to show my growth and what I’ve learned from the pain of this experience. Also, to those of you who don’t believe in my innocence or outright betrayed me, whether you want it or not---I forgive you.
Alright, what good would this message be without my famous movie recommendation and profound statement? Most movies don’t make me cry and maybe it just happens to be where I am in my life at the moment. But my movie recommendation is: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. All I can say is whoever wrote the script for this movie understands the gift of life. This is a must see!
My profound statement brings me almost full circle to when I started writing these messages. “Some lessons cannot be taught they must be lived to be learned: (ELEKTRA)
Until next month, take care and remember; “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences.”
Love & Light to All
Michael
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Michael released on bail by order of U.S. Supreme Court
September 1, 2009: After nearly 9 long years spent in prison for a crime he did not commit Michael O'Laughlin was released today on bail. Michael was due to be released August 24th by mandate of the U.S. First Circuit Court of Appeals but the Attorney General of the Commonwealth of Massachusetts filed any emergency motion with the US Supreme Court to stay the mandate and keep Michael in prison. Associate Justice Stephen Breyer of the Supreme Court denied the Attorney General's motion and ordered Michael to be released with bail (see court order: http://www.freemichaelnow.com/JUstice_Breyer_amended_order.pdf). Although this doesn't mean Michael is freed it does mean he can get out of prison and spend time with family and friends. The Commonwealth can and most likely will file a petition for writ of certiorari with the Supreme Court to overturn the not guilty verdict of an 8-1 decision by the First Circuit Court of Appeals. There is a very strong possibility the Supreme Court will deny the Commonwealth's petition; at that time Michael will be released from bail and freed from the remaining 41 years of his sentence for wrongful conviction. We are so thankful and most grateful for Michael's legal team who have worked so diligently on Michael's behalf. Overturning a wrongful conviction is next to impossible; sadly it happens so infrequently, but with your prayers and never ending support this day has become a reality, and I can't begin to thank you enough.
Michael will be staying with his Mother on Cape Cod. If you wish to send Michael cards and letters please email me (dickleb@aol.cm) for his address, and I will gladly send it to you.
Once again thank you so very, very much for your prayers, your support and your belief in Michael's innocence; it helped kept Michael spirits up during his time in prison.
God bless you,
Dick
Michael will be staying with his Mother on Cape Cod. If you wish to send Michael cards and letters please email me (dickleb@aol.cm) for his address, and I will gladly send it to you.
Once again thank you so very, very much for your prayers, your support and your belief in Michael's innocence; it helped kept Michael spirits up during his time in prison.
God bless you,
Dick
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Michael's Monthly Message for August 2009
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for August 2009!
Well, it seems I have been blessed with good news for this month. The En Banc Petition filed by the Attorney General’s Office has been denied. This is good news for getting me one step closer to my freedom. Although, I must admit, I was very disappointed to learn one Judge (Sandra Lynch) wrote a deplorable 20 page dissent. I guess someone had to be the “Devil’s Advocate” and support the abnormal, misleading thinking of David Capeless.
Also, it should be a “no brainer” that Martha Coakley (Attorney General) will now petition the United States Supreme Court. Let’s hope the U.S. Supreme Court doesn’t even entertain their petition. Otherwise, it could get very ugly, because you never know how those judges are going to rule. They seem to be very inconsistent lately, and they are sticking together as a party. This means the Democrats are siding with Democrats and the Republicans are siding with Republicans. Regardless of what happens, I will say this: my journey of late has been exhausting emotionally, mentally, and physically. I’m ready for this to be over with and to start my life again. This whole experience has been quite an education, and I plan on sharing what I’ve learned so that it might help someone else.
For now, I must try and stay positive, and who knows – maybe Martha Coakley won’t petition the U.S. Supreme Court. Yeah, I know wishful thinking, but you never know – miracles do happen.
Speaking of miracles, wasn’t that an awesome feeling watching the true happiness of the two American journalists, Laura Ling and Euna Lee being reunited with their families after being held prisoners in North Korea. I have to admit, I had tears of joy in my eyes when I saw Euna Lee embrace her four year old daughter. Dr. Wayne Dyer says that the person who observes an act of true kindness and love can actually feel more from the experience than the ones who are partaking in the event. Supposedly, it has to do with a chemical that is released in the brain. To me, it almost seems impossible, but I guess on some level, it’s very possible – especially when we witness events with our own children’s happiness. Isn’t it weird how young children just trigger something in us that we want to see them be happy. It must be their natural purity and innocence that our inner self or spirit sees. Then it connects or brings our subconscious mind back to a place where we relate to true happiness and love. Okay, I know I’m rambling on, but I guarantee you will remember what I’m saying the next time you see a commercial with children or you have the luxury of witnessing it first hand with your own children. There really is no explanation for why children are so awesome – they are just precious!
Speaking of children, I miss my daughters like crazy. I was hoping I would be out before I lose my parental rights, but it looks like that’s not going to happen especially if the Attorney General goes to the U.S. Supreme Court. That will tie up another six months. Oh well, I just hope they know I love them and miss them very much.
Before I forget, I want to thank EVERYONE for your continued support and positive energy. I have received so many letters telling me that: “you will be free, just hang in there”. You have no idea how much all that inspiration helps. I want to send a special thanks out to my new friends, Douglas and Joanne. You guys have no idea how grateful I am for you coming into my life – both spiritually and inspirationally. Yes, I definitely have been blessed with everyone’s love and support – Thank You!
Last but not least, I want to wish Dick Blanchard a wonderful and Happy Birthday this month. I’m not sure if everyone knows, but Dick’s dedication and loyalty to my cause has been unparalleled. He works extremely hard on the website and keeps everyone updated and informed on all fronts concerning my case and life. Like I have said before - he is a true angel in disguise. I am so grateful he is in my life – Happy Birthday – Dick!
My movie recommendation is: “Knowing” with Nicholas Cage. It is basically a sci-fi thriller, but it is action packed with an unusual story line and ending. I enjoyed it very much, and I think many of you will like it too.
My profound statement is: “Vivere Senza Rimpianti” which means “To Live Without Regrets”.
Until next month, take care and remember; “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All
Michael O’Laughlin
Welcome to my Monthly Message for August 2009!
Well, it seems I have been blessed with good news for this month. The En Banc Petition filed by the Attorney General’s Office has been denied. This is good news for getting me one step closer to my freedom. Although, I must admit, I was very disappointed to learn one Judge (Sandra Lynch) wrote a deplorable 20 page dissent. I guess someone had to be the “Devil’s Advocate” and support the abnormal, misleading thinking of David Capeless.
Also, it should be a “no brainer” that Martha Coakley (Attorney General) will now petition the United States Supreme Court. Let’s hope the U.S. Supreme Court doesn’t even entertain their petition. Otherwise, it could get very ugly, because you never know how those judges are going to rule. They seem to be very inconsistent lately, and they are sticking together as a party. This means the Democrats are siding with Democrats and the Republicans are siding with Republicans. Regardless of what happens, I will say this: my journey of late has been exhausting emotionally, mentally, and physically. I’m ready for this to be over with and to start my life again. This whole experience has been quite an education, and I plan on sharing what I’ve learned so that it might help someone else.
For now, I must try and stay positive, and who knows – maybe Martha Coakley won’t petition the U.S. Supreme Court. Yeah, I know wishful thinking, but you never know – miracles do happen.
Speaking of miracles, wasn’t that an awesome feeling watching the true happiness of the two American journalists, Laura Ling and Euna Lee being reunited with their families after being held prisoners in North Korea. I have to admit, I had tears of joy in my eyes when I saw Euna Lee embrace her four year old daughter. Dr. Wayne Dyer says that the person who observes an act of true kindness and love can actually feel more from the experience than the ones who are partaking in the event. Supposedly, it has to do with a chemical that is released in the brain. To me, it almost seems impossible, but I guess on some level, it’s very possible – especially when we witness events with our own children’s happiness. Isn’t it weird how young children just trigger something in us that we want to see them be happy. It must be their natural purity and innocence that our inner self or spirit sees. Then it connects or brings our subconscious mind back to a place where we relate to true happiness and love. Okay, I know I’m rambling on, but I guarantee you will remember what I’m saying the next time you see a commercial with children or you have the luxury of witnessing it first hand with your own children. There really is no explanation for why children are so awesome – they are just precious!
Speaking of children, I miss my daughters like crazy. I was hoping I would be out before I lose my parental rights, but it looks like that’s not going to happen especially if the Attorney General goes to the U.S. Supreme Court. That will tie up another six months. Oh well, I just hope they know I love them and miss them very much.
Before I forget, I want to thank EVERYONE for your continued support and positive energy. I have received so many letters telling me that: “you will be free, just hang in there”. You have no idea how much all that inspiration helps. I want to send a special thanks out to my new friends, Douglas and Joanne. You guys have no idea how grateful I am for you coming into my life – both spiritually and inspirationally. Yes, I definitely have been blessed with everyone’s love and support – Thank You!
Last but not least, I want to wish Dick Blanchard a wonderful and Happy Birthday this month. I’m not sure if everyone knows, but Dick’s dedication and loyalty to my cause has been unparalleled. He works extremely hard on the website and keeps everyone updated and informed on all fronts concerning my case and life. Like I have said before - he is a true angel in disguise. I am so grateful he is in my life – Happy Birthday – Dick!
My movie recommendation is: “Knowing” with Nicholas Cage. It is basically a sci-fi thriller, but it is action packed with an unusual story line and ending. I enjoyed it very much, and I think many of you will like it too.
My profound statement is: “Vivere Senza Rimpianti” which means “To Live Without Regrets”.
Until next month, take care and remember; “The answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All
Michael O’Laughlin
Friday, August 7, 2009
En Banc hearing denied
Hi Everyone,
I have wonderful news. The US First Circuit Court of Appeals has denied the Commonwealth of Massachusetts appeal for an En Banc hearing. This means that the decision by the 3-judge panel that reversed Michael's conviction on June 11, 2009 remains intact. The only option left for the Commonwealth is for the Attorney Generals office to file a petition for writ of cert to the US Supreme Court, and we believe they will. We expect the Commonwealth will move to stay the order (keeping Michael in prison) while the writ of cert to the US Supreme Court is pending. Michael's lawyer will file a motion for release and try to obtain bail for Michael so he can be released from prison. There is no guarantee this motion for bail will be granted but we are hopeful. I will keep you posted as further events occur.
I want to thank each and every one of you for your prayers and support; they certainly have helped, and Michael remains forever grateful to all of you.
Read court's denial of En Banc hearing!
God bless you,
Dick
I have wonderful news. The US First Circuit Court of Appeals has denied the Commonwealth of Massachusetts appeal for an En Banc hearing. This means that the decision by the 3-judge panel that reversed Michael's conviction on June 11, 2009 remains intact. The only option left for the Commonwealth is for the Attorney Generals office to file a petition for writ of cert to the US Supreme Court, and we believe they will. We expect the Commonwealth will move to stay the order (keeping Michael in prison) while the writ of cert to the US Supreme Court is pending. Michael's lawyer will file a motion for release and try to obtain bail for Michael so he can be released from prison. There is no guarantee this motion for bail will be granted but we are hopeful. I will keep you posted as further events occur.
I want to thank each and every one of you for your prayers and support; they certainly have helped, and Michael remains forever grateful to all of you.
Read court's denial of En Banc hearing!
God bless you,
Dick
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Michael O'Laughlin's Monthly Message - July 2009
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for July 2009!
This month is the two-year anniversary of me writing these Monthly Messages. Part of me can’t believe two years has gone by, and part of me remembers every agonizing minute. However, this month, I have some good news to report. The United States Court of Appeals for the 1st Circuit reversed my conviction, and said I am innocent. It’s a pretty big deal in the world of justice, because the 1st Circuit very seldom grants Habeas relief in a criminal conviction. Although, I can’t get too excited because at the request of D.A. Capeless, the Attorney General has filed a petition En Banc, in hopes that the remaining judges will disagree with the decision by the panel and reinstate my conviction. Only time will tell if personal politics goes all the way up to the Federal Court of Appeals. Regardless of that fact, I will always be grateful for the judges who saw through the corruption and applied the law correctly to uphold the truth. There are not many who have the integrity to do that. Plus, I believe this never would have happened without “divine intervention”.
Now comes the hard part – waiting. I was so surprised by this decision that I have been an emotional wreck since my lawyer told me on the morning of June 11, 2009. Hopefully, the next bit of good news I receive is that the court denies the Attorney General’s petition for the En Banc hearing. Then, I would only have one hurdle left which would be the United States Supreme Court. I never thought in a million years my case would become this exciting.
Another thing I know to be true is none of this would be possible without all of your prayers. I want to thank everyone so much for keeping me in your prayers and sending out positive energy all these years. I will never forget everyone’s dedication, and I will be forever grateful. Please keep praying!
Every July brings a “bit of special celebration” for me and that’s because it is my youngest daughter’s birthday. Happy Birthday! I love you! Most of you don’t realize that the decision from the U.S. Court of Appeals (if it stands) has another bonus feature. I will be able to keep my parental rights as a father! Yeah, pretty amazing timing. Otherwise, I will lose my parental rights too. By the way, those of you who sent me Father’s Day cards, bless your heart – that was extremely thoughtful.
Okay, turning to food for a moment. I know, who would have thought my conversation would turn to food, but I have on another episode of “Spain on the Road Again” on PBS with Gwyneth Paltrow, Claudia Bassols, Mario Bateli, and a New York food critic named Pittman. The way they enjoy food (without having been in prison) has given me a new found respect for people who truly enjoy food. What a blessing it will be if I’m given the chance to eat food that is real and healthy again. I know one thing – I will never take anything for granted again, and I’m not just talking about my freedom or food either.
On a sad note, Farrah Fawcett didn’t win her battle against cancer. It seems the old saying about celebrities passing on in “threes” seems to be true since we lost Ed McMahon and Michael Jackson too. Let’s remember their families in our prayers.
My movie recommendation is actually somewhat current. The prison gave us a newly released movie for the Fourth of July. It was called “Taken” with Liam Neeson, Maggie Grace, and Katie Cassidy. If you like non-stop action, this movie is unbelievable. Also, I think every seventeen year old girl should have to watch this movie. This really happens in the world, and they need to be aware of it. Even though most fathers like myself would give their life for their daughter. We don’t all have the talents or abilities Liam Neeson portrayed in the movie. I think this movie will make young girls think twice about running off to spring break or disobeying their parents when they want to go out of the country. Sometimes the truth hurts.
My profound statement is very simple but true: “The mind authenticates words, but the heart translates love”. (Valentine)
Until next month, remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All
Michael
Welcome to my Monthly Message for July 2009!
This month is the two-year anniversary of me writing these Monthly Messages. Part of me can’t believe two years has gone by, and part of me remembers every agonizing minute. However, this month, I have some good news to report. The United States Court of Appeals for the 1st Circuit reversed my conviction, and said I am innocent. It’s a pretty big deal in the world of justice, because the 1st Circuit very seldom grants Habeas relief in a criminal conviction. Although, I can’t get too excited because at the request of D.A. Capeless, the Attorney General has filed a petition En Banc, in hopes that the remaining judges will disagree with the decision by the panel and reinstate my conviction. Only time will tell if personal politics goes all the way up to the Federal Court of Appeals. Regardless of that fact, I will always be grateful for the judges who saw through the corruption and applied the law correctly to uphold the truth. There are not many who have the integrity to do that. Plus, I believe this never would have happened without “divine intervention”.
Now comes the hard part – waiting. I was so surprised by this decision that I have been an emotional wreck since my lawyer told me on the morning of June 11, 2009. Hopefully, the next bit of good news I receive is that the court denies the Attorney General’s petition for the En Banc hearing. Then, I would only have one hurdle left which would be the United States Supreme Court. I never thought in a million years my case would become this exciting.
Another thing I know to be true is none of this would be possible without all of your prayers. I want to thank everyone so much for keeping me in your prayers and sending out positive energy all these years. I will never forget everyone’s dedication, and I will be forever grateful. Please keep praying!
Every July brings a “bit of special celebration” for me and that’s because it is my youngest daughter’s birthday. Happy Birthday! I love you! Most of you don’t realize that the decision from the U.S. Court of Appeals (if it stands) has another bonus feature. I will be able to keep my parental rights as a father! Yeah, pretty amazing timing. Otherwise, I will lose my parental rights too. By the way, those of you who sent me Father’s Day cards, bless your heart – that was extremely thoughtful.
Okay, turning to food for a moment. I know, who would have thought my conversation would turn to food, but I have on another episode of “Spain on the Road Again” on PBS with Gwyneth Paltrow, Claudia Bassols, Mario Bateli, and a New York food critic named Pittman. The way they enjoy food (without having been in prison) has given me a new found respect for people who truly enjoy food. What a blessing it will be if I’m given the chance to eat food that is real and healthy again. I know one thing – I will never take anything for granted again, and I’m not just talking about my freedom or food either.
On a sad note, Farrah Fawcett didn’t win her battle against cancer. It seems the old saying about celebrities passing on in “threes” seems to be true since we lost Ed McMahon and Michael Jackson too. Let’s remember their families in our prayers.
My movie recommendation is actually somewhat current. The prison gave us a newly released movie for the Fourth of July. It was called “Taken” with Liam Neeson, Maggie Grace, and Katie Cassidy. If you like non-stop action, this movie is unbelievable. Also, I think every seventeen year old girl should have to watch this movie. This really happens in the world, and they need to be aware of it. Even though most fathers like myself would give their life for their daughter. We don’t all have the talents or abilities Liam Neeson portrayed in the movie. I think this movie will make young girls think twice about running off to spring break or disobeying their parents when they want to go out of the country. Sometimes the truth hurts.
My profound statement is very simple but true: “The mind authenticates words, but the heart translates love”. (Valentine)
Until next month, remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All
Michael
Friday, July 10, 2009
Attorney General seeks to reverse "flawed" decision
Coakley seeks to reverse ‘flawed’ decision
Updated: 07/09/2009 11:59:13 PM EDT
By Jack Dew
Berkshire Eagle Staff
LEE -- The attorney general is seeking to keep Michael O’Laughlin, convicted of beating a Lee woman nearly to death in 2000 but exonerated last month by a federal court, behind bars.
State Attorney General Martha Coakley has asked all six judges of the First Circuit Court of Appeals to overturn the three-judge opinion that concluded there was insufficient evidence to justify the jury’s guilty verdict.
Calling the three judges’ decision "fundamentally flawed," the attorney general argued in a petition to the First Circuit that the jury was presented ample -- though circumstantial -- evidence to convict O’Laughlin of beating Annmarie Kotowski in her Fox Hollow apartment in the early morning of Nov. 17, 2000. If the full panel of judges agrees with the prosecution, O’Laughlin’s verdict and sentence would be reinstated.
The attorney general’s request was filed on June 30. The court has not yet responded; it can grant the hearing -- known as an "en banc" review -- or deny it. If it denies the appeal, the state’s last resort would be to ask the Supreme Court to hear the case.
Meanwhile, O’Laughlin, 41, remains in prison. His attorney, Kenneth I. Seiger, said he has filed a request for bail but does not expect the court to act until it has responded to the attorney general’s appeal.
O’Laughlin, formerly of Lee, was convicted in 2002 of beating Kotowski and sentenced to 35 to 50 years in state prison. His conviction was overturned by a state appeals court but then reinstated by the Supreme Judicial Court. O’Laughlin then made his successful appeal to the federal courts.
The prosecution argued that O’Laughlin was using crack cocaine on the night of Nov. 16, 2000, but ran out of drugs and money. His phone records showed a panicked series of phone calls to several drug dealers that apparently failed to yield more cocaine.
O’Laughlin worked at the Fox Hollow complex and had a master key, which the prosecution said he used to enter Kotowski’s apartment, planning to steal money to buy more drugs. But Kotowski must have awoken and O’Laughlin, scared of being caught, beat her nearly to death with an aluminum baseball bat, shattering bones in her face and leaving her unable to remember the events of that night.
A neighbor heard Kotowski screaming and called the police. When officers arrived, they found O’Laughlin -- dressed in nothing but boxer shorts -- outside by a dumpster, where he said he had heard a trapped animal. The police left, and Kotowski wasn’t found until the morning.
Investigators found a baseball bat with O’Laughlin’s name on the handle in the woods about 25 yards from the crime scene, but they found no physical evidence that definitively tied that bat, or O’Laughlin, to the beating.
The defense argued that the absence of physical evidence was significant. Though Kotowski’s bedroom was covered in blood, none was found on O’Laughlin, in his apartment, on the bat or anywhere else. And while O’Laughlin’s motive was supposedly robbery, nothing was taken from Kotowski’s apartment, including jewelry that was sitting in plain sight and more than $500 in cash.
The defense argued that Kotowski’s estranged husband, David, was a better suspect: He had recently learned that his wife was having an affair with another man. The couple separated before the attack and, five days before the assault, Annmarie began discussing divorce.
Officers searched David’s car and found towels matching those in his wife’s apartment, reeking of bleach. The prosecution, however, said police thoroughly investigated David and cleared him.
Now, the attorney general is arguing that the appeals court misinterpreted the evidence and the law, setting a troubling precedent that would deprive juries of their due deference.
By dismissing the motive and concluding that the savage beating was inconsistent with a perpetrator seeking money, the judges exceeded their authority, deciding matters that must be left to a jury, the attorney general said.
Among their many mistakes, the attorney general wrote, the judges tried to minimize the significance of O’Laughlin’s master key and ignored the telephone records that proved O’Laughlin was awake in his apartment just moments before the crime. The upstairs neighbor who called police said he did not hear a car enter or leave the apartment complex until the officers arrived.
"The totality of the circumstantial evidence supported a reasonable inference that O’Laughlin entered the victim’s apartment using his master key in search of money to buy drugs, and, in the process, he awakened the victim and beat her with a baseball bat to subdue her," the attorney general wrote.
To reach Jack Dew:
jdew@berkshireeagle.com
(413) 496-6241
Updated: 07/09/2009 11:59:13 PM EDT
By Jack Dew
Berkshire Eagle Staff
LEE -- The attorney general is seeking to keep Michael O’Laughlin, convicted of beating a Lee woman nearly to death in 2000 but exonerated last month by a federal court, behind bars.
State Attorney General Martha Coakley has asked all six judges of the First Circuit Court of Appeals to overturn the three-judge opinion that concluded there was insufficient evidence to justify the jury’s guilty verdict.
Calling the three judges’ decision "fundamentally flawed," the attorney general argued in a petition to the First Circuit that the jury was presented ample -- though circumstantial -- evidence to convict O’Laughlin of beating Annmarie Kotowski in her Fox Hollow apartment in the early morning of Nov. 17, 2000. If the full panel of judges agrees with the prosecution, O’Laughlin’s verdict and sentence would be reinstated.
The attorney general’s request was filed on June 30. The court has not yet responded; it can grant the hearing -- known as an "en banc" review -- or deny it. If it denies the appeal, the state’s last resort would be to ask the Supreme Court to hear the case.
Meanwhile, O’Laughlin, 41, remains in prison. His attorney, Kenneth I. Seiger, said he has filed a request for bail but does not expect the court to act until it has responded to the attorney general’s appeal.
O’Laughlin, formerly of Lee, was convicted in 2002 of beating Kotowski and sentenced to 35 to 50 years in state prison. His conviction was overturned by a state appeals court but then reinstated by the Supreme Judicial Court. O’Laughlin then made his successful appeal to the federal courts.
The prosecution argued that O’Laughlin was using crack cocaine on the night of Nov. 16, 2000, but ran out of drugs and money. His phone records showed a panicked series of phone calls to several drug dealers that apparently failed to yield more cocaine.
O’Laughlin worked at the Fox Hollow complex and had a master key, which the prosecution said he used to enter Kotowski’s apartment, planning to steal money to buy more drugs. But Kotowski must have awoken and O’Laughlin, scared of being caught, beat her nearly to death with an aluminum baseball bat, shattering bones in her face and leaving her unable to remember the events of that night.
A neighbor heard Kotowski screaming and called the police. When officers arrived, they found O’Laughlin -- dressed in nothing but boxer shorts -- outside by a dumpster, where he said he had heard a trapped animal. The police left, and Kotowski wasn’t found until the morning.
Investigators found a baseball bat with O’Laughlin’s name on the handle in the woods about 25 yards from the crime scene, but they found no physical evidence that definitively tied that bat, or O’Laughlin, to the beating.
The defense argued that the absence of physical evidence was significant. Though Kotowski’s bedroom was covered in blood, none was found on O’Laughlin, in his apartment, on the bat or anywhere else. And while O’Laughlin’s motive was supposedly robbery, nothing was taken from Kotowski’s apartment, including jewelry that was sitting in plain sight and more than $500 in cash.
The defense argued that Kotowski’s estranged husband, David, was a better suspect: He had recently learned that his wife was having an affair with another man. The couple separated before the attack and, five days before the assault, Annmarie began discussing divorce.
Officers searched David’s car and found towels matching those in his wife’s apartment, reeking of bleach. The prosecution, however, said police thoroughly investigated David and cleared him.
Now, the attorney general is arguing that the appeals court misinterpreted the evidence and the law, setting a troubling precedent that would deprive juries of their due deference.
By dismissing the motive and concluding that the savage beating was inconsistent with a perpetrator seeking money, the judges exceeded their authority, deciding matters that must be left to a jury, the attorney general said.
Among their many mistakes, the attorney general wrote, the judges tried to minimize the significance of O’Laughlin’s master key and ignored the telephone records that proved O’Laughlin was awake in his apartment just moments before the crime. The upstairs neighbor who called police said he did not hear a car enter or leave the apartment complex until the officers arrived.
"The totality of the circumstantial evidence supported a reasonable inference that O’Laughlin entered the victim’s apartment using his master key in search of money to buy drugs, and, in the process, he awakened the victim and beat her with a baseball bat to subdue her," the attorney general wrote.
To reach Jack Dew:
jdew@berkshireeagle.com
(413) 496-6241
Monday, July 6, 2009
Berkshire Record Story of Michael's Reversal
There was a front page story of the June 19, 2009 edition of The Berkshire Record. There was a photo of Michael in the article but because The Berkshire Record does not make articles available online they were only able to send me the text (which I formatted) without the photo.
Following is the article:
Berkshire Record Article (June 19, 2009) on Michael's reversal by First Circuit Court
Regards,
Dick
Following is the article:
Berkshire Record Article (June 19, 2009) on Michael's reversal by First Circuit Court
Regards,
Dick
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Thoughts from Michael
The following was written the night of June 10th from Michael's Emotional Awareness class. This was the night before the decision from the first circuit court was announced reversing his conviction.
Dick
June 11, 2009
Dear Inner Child:
I see that you are still very sad. Is there any way I can help? I really miss the old you. Do you remember how full of life you were? I'm sorry you experienced some really difficult times, but you did have some good times too. Over the years there have been many who have tried to cheer you up and it's quite apparent that it was to no avail.
Inner child, I can't emphasize how important it is for you to break free from the depression you're in and realize it could be worse. You must be grateful for what you have and stop dwelling in the past and try to enjoy the present moment. Otherwise, it will eventually start affecting your health.
What if I were to tell you that what you are experiencing in this life is all just a lesson to make you a stronger individual. The loss you feel for your daughters and the rest of your family will be restored some day. And whether it's in this life or another you will see them again. But as sad as you are, you must never forget how loved you are, you are very special.
Please just try and remember: some lessons in life cannot be taught, they must be lived to be learned. When you are ready to talk about all that you lost and forgive those who betrayed and abandoned you, I will be here waiting with an open heart. Then, I can show you the beauty that still remains in the wonderful journey your life will bring.
Light & Love
Your External Friend
Michael
Dick
June 11, 2009
Dear Inner Child:
I see that you are still very sad. Is there any way I can help? I really miss the old you. Do you remember how full of life you were? I'm sorry you experienced some really difficult times, but you did have some good times too. Over the years there have been many who have tried to cheer you up and it's quite apparent that it was to no avail.
Inner child, I can't emphasize how important it is for you to break free from the depression you're in and realize it could be worse. You must be grateful for what you have and stop dwelling in the past and try to enjoy the present moment. Otherwise, it will eventually start affecting your health.
What if I were to tell you that what you are experiencing in this life is all just a lesson to make you a stronger individual. The loss you feel for your daughters and the rest of your family will be restored some day. And whether it's in this life or another you will see them again. But as sad as you are, you must never forget how loved you are, you are very special.
Please just try and remember: some lessons in life cannot be taught, they must be lived to be learned. When you are ready to talk about all that you lost and forgive those who betrayed and abandoned you, I will be here waiting with an open heart. Then, I can show you the beauty that still remains in the wonderful journey your life will bring.
Light & Love
Your External Friend
Michael
Friday, June 26, 2009
Latest Mass Lawyers Weekly Article
Here is a link to the latest article published in the Massachuettes Weekly Lawyers review. The article "Lawyer defies odds in securing habeas corpus ruling for client" tells how Michael's lawyer was able to obtain a very rare reversal by the First Circuit Court of Appeals.
Lawyer defies odds in securing habeas corpus ruling for client
Dick
Lawyer defies odds in securing habeas corpus ruling for client
Dick
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Questions concerning Michael’s reversal by 1st Circuit Court of Appeals
Many of you have sent me emails regarding the reversal of Michael’s conviction by the 1st Circuit Court of Appeals. I will attempt to answer your questions as best as I can with the information currently available:
1. Has Michael been freed and released from prison? No, Michael has not been freed and is still in prison. The ruling by the 1st Circuit Court of Appeals is a big step toward releasing him from prison but it is not the final step; the Commonwealth of Massachusetts still has some options available to appeal the decision by the 3-judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court.
2. Can Michael be released on bail? Michael’s attorney has filed a motion for release with bail conditions. He hopes the court will act on the motion for bail quickly. I will keep you posted as soon as we hear any news regarding possible bail and what the conditions for bail are. Please remember there is no guarantee the court will grant bail.
3. What options are available by the Commonwealth of Massachusetts to appeal the decision by the 3 judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court of Appeals? 1) The Attorney General's (AG) office of Massachusetts intends to file a petition for a rehearing en banc. This means that the AG wants another hearing and decision by all the justices in the First Circuit, not just the 3 justices who decided the appeal and reversed Michael’s conviction. If the court denies the petition by the AG the decision by the 3 judge panel will stand. If the court grants the petition by the AG there will be another hearing before the full court. Obviously we don't want this because we don't want a majority of all the judges possibly taking a different view than the 3 judge panel who just reversed Michael’s conviction. We hope that the court acts quickly on whether or not to rehear the case en banc, and even more so we hope they deny the AG’s petition. 2) If the AG's petition for en banc is denied, the AG's only recourse is a petition to the US Supreme Court to reinstate Michael’s conviction. Of course we hope the US Supreme Court would deny the AG’s petition. If the court denies the AG’s petition Michael is freed from prison.
4. What if the decision by the 1st Circuit Court reverses the 3 judge panel and reinstates Michael’s conviction? Our option would be to file a petition with the US Supreme Court to reverse the 1st Circuit Court’s ruling and overturn Michael’s conviction. If the court denies Michael’s petition his conviction would stand and we would start to pursue other avenues to obtain his freedom.
5. What are we hoping for? We hope that the 1st Circuit Court and the US Supreme Court denies the petitions filed by the AG of Massachusetts and that the current ruling by the 3 judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court stands. If this happens Michael is free man.
6. Can Michael be retried for the crime he has been convicted of? According to the ruling of the 3 judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court the answer is no. If their ruling stands Michael is freed and cannot be retried for the crime.
If you have any further questions respond to this blog article by entering your questions under comments rather than sending me an email. In this way everyone has access to further questions, comments and questions.
Thanks,
Dick
Links to other articles:
Berkshire Eagle story
The Docket article
1. Has Michael been freed and released from prison? No, Michael has not been freed and is still in prison. The ruling by the 1st Circuit Court of Appeals is a big step toward releasing him from prison but it is not the final step; the Commonwealth of Massachusetts still has some options available to appeal the decision by the 3-judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court.
2. Can Michael be released on bail? Michael’s attorney has filed a motion for release with bail conditions. He hopes the court will act on the motion for bail quickly. I will keep you posted as soon as we hear any news regarding possible bail and what the conditions for bail are. Please remember there is no guarantee the court will grant bail.
3. What options are available by the Commonwealth of Massachusetts to appeal the decision by the 3 judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court of Appeals? 1) The Attorney General's (AG) office of Massachusetts intends to file a petition for a rehearing en banc. This means that the AG wants another hearing and decision by all the justices in the First Circuit, not just the 3 justices who decided the appeal and reversed Michael’s conviction. If the court denies the petition by the AG the decision by the 3 judge panel will stand. If the court grants the petition by the AG there will be another hearing before the full court. Obviously we don't want this because we don't want a majority of all the judges possibly taking a different view than the 3 judge panel who just reversed Michael’s conviction. We hope that the court acts quickly on whether or not to rehear the case en banc, and even more so we hope they deny the AG’s petition. 2) If the AG's petition for en banc is denied, the AG's only recourse is a petition to the US Supreme Court to reinstate Michael’s conviction. Of course we hope the US Supreme Court would deny the AG’s petition. If the court denies the AG’s petition Michael is freed from prison.
4. What if the decision by the 1st Circuit Court reverses the 3 judge panel and reinstates Michael’s conviction? Our option would be to file a petition with the US Supreme Court to reverse the 1st Circuit Court’s ruling and overturn Michael’s conviction. If the court denies Michael’s petition his conviction would stand and we would start to pursue other avenues to obtain his freedom.
5. What are we hoping for? We hope that the 1st Circuit Court and the US Supreme Court denies the petitions filed by the AG of Massachusetts and that the current ruling by the 3 judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court stands. If this happens Michael is free man.
6. Can Michael be retried for the crime he has been convicted of? According to the ruling of the 3 judge panel of the 1st Circuit Court the answer is no. If their ruling stands Michael is freed and cannot be retried for the crime.
If you have any further questions respond to this blog article by entering your questions under comments rather than sending me an email. In this way everyone has access to further questions, comments and questions.
Thanks,
Dick
Links to other articles:
Berkshire Eagle story
The Docket article
June 2009 Monthly Message
"This monthly message was written by Michael prior to the First Circuit Court of Appeals reversing his conviction"
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for June 2009!
Last month, I told everyone I would share some of what I’ve been reading in the science book called “A Short History of Nearly Everything” by Bill Bryson. Well, I’m still reading it, because I read two other wonderful books. One is called “The Shack” by Paul Wm. Young and the other is “Only Love is Real” by Dr. Brian Weiss. By the way, if you want to read a book that will change your view on life, I highly recommend reading “The Shack” or “Only Love is Real”. They really are quite good.
Alright, you talked me into it. I guess I will have to share a small paragraph of one of the chapters I read in “A Short History of Nearly Everything”. The chapter is called “Welcome to the Solar System”, and some of you may find learning about the universe as fascinating as me. So, I think you will appreciate this. Okay, our nearest neighbor in the Cosmos is Proxima Centauri, which is part of the 3-star cluster known as Alpha Centauri, which is approximately 4.3 light years away. Now this is the interesting part: everyone wants to know if there is other life out in the universe. Well, a 1960’s professor at Cornell named Frank Drake came up with the “Drake Equation” to figure out if it is possible to have other advanced civilizations in the universe. Are you ready? Without explaining his equation in detail, even with the most conservative inputs, the number of advanced civilizations just in our own little (100 thousand light years wide) Milky Way works out to be somewhere in the millions! Isn’t that unbelievable? Unfortunately, space being as big as it is, the average distance between any two of these civilizations is reckoned to be at least 200 light years. Basically, that means even if another advanced civilization knew we were here and somehow were able to see us in their telescope, they are watching the French Revolution and people like Thomas Jefferson. Yeah, doesn’t that blow your mind? The next time you are outside during the night time, look up at the stars and remember the majority of stars you are looking at burned out millions of years ago. Yet, the light is still traveling here. Can you believe this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the Cosmos?
This leads me into the story about the Hubble Telescope that was just repaired. I know some of you may feel your tax dollars could be used in a better way than spending 220 million in new instruments to repair the Hubble Telescope. However, I for one thank all of you, because I love space exploration and the more we can learn - the better. Plus, what good is it having a broken telescope floating around until 2014 when NASA puts the new James Webb telescope into orbit. I can’t wait to see pictures from that telescope!
Okay, it is time to get back to Earth. Father’s Day is this month, and although my Dad doesn’t get to read these messages, I want to wish him a Happy Father’s Day. I really wish I had spent more time with him when I had the chance, because I do love him and miss him very much. As for me, it really sucks that my chance to be a good father was taken away. Although, I guess when it comes down to it, I have no one to blame but myself. I reflect during my sleepless nights if my daughters will ever forgive me for not being there. Now that my daughters are being adopted by my ex-wife and her husband, all chances of me being the tiniest particle in their life have been extinguished. When it comes down to it, they have a father figure in their life, and I imagine they are happy so that is all that really matters. Who knows – maybe someday I’ll get to be in their life again.
I watched an important special about Farrah Faucett and her battle with cancer. I know this might sound weird, but would you all say a prayer for her. I have a new-found respect for her and the many people who are fighting cancer. After taking the Health Awareness course, I now understand how the cancer cells spread so fast throughout the body and why it is so hard to beat cancer. Let me just say it is imperative that you eat right, exercise, and keep your immune system at full strength. Then you might have a chance. Of course, there is always destiny to contend with too, but don’t get me started on that subject again.
On a different note, I want to share another example of how I don’t take anything for granted anymore – not even the little things. The other day I actually got to enjoy a piece of gum for the first time in nine years. I don’t recommend chewing the same piece for more than four hours either, but I was like a kid again for the first hour. It was Trident bubble gum, so I could blow bubbles. Yeah, I know it sounds pretty silly, but I enjoyed it.
Still no news on the decision from the Federal Court of Appeals, but I’m hoping the reason for the length of time is a good one. (Note: Michael’s June 2009 Monthly Message was written before the Federal Court of Appeals came down with their verdict in his favor.)
As I have mentioned in the past, the Department of Corrections in Massachusetts will no longer allow us to watch rated “R” movies. However, now the OCCC (the institution I’m in) has gone a step further and taken away our ability to view newly released PG-13 movies. They are claiming the local Blockbuster closed down so they can’t purchase any movie rentals. With that said, my movie recommendations may be coming to an end. Although, it probably doesn’t matter, because I’m sure most of you don’t base your decision on my recommendation anyway. However, if there is one of you who do take my recommendations seriously, here is my recommendation for this month. The movie is called “Bottle Shock”, and it is about California wines versus the famous French wines. I know it might not sound very exciting and it doesn’t have any really big celebrities in it, but I promise it is a good movie. It’s so good, you might just find yourself wanting to try a bottle of Chateau Montella.
My profound quote is “No matter how many times a story starts or repeats, it only ends once. Anything that happens before that is just progress.” (Lost)
Until next month, take care and remember; “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and light to all,
Michael
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for June 2009!
Last month, I told everyone I would share some of what I’ve been reading in the science book called “A Short History of Nearly Everything” by Bill Bryson. Well, I’m still reading it, because I read two other wonderful books. One is called “The Shack” by Paul Wm. Young and the other is “Only Love is Real” by Dr. Brian Weiss. By the way, if you want to read a book that will change your view on life, I highly recommend reading “The Shack” or “Only Love is Real”. They really are quite good.
Alright, you talked me into it. I guess I will have to share a small paragraph of one of the chapters I read in “A Short History of Nearly Everything”. The chapter is called “Welcome to the Solar System”, and some of you may find learning about the universe as fascinating as me. So, I think you will appreciate this. Okay, our nearest neighbor in the Cosmos is Proxima Centauri, which is part of the 3-star cluster known as Alpha Centauri, which is approximately 4.3 light years away. Now this is the interesting part: everyone wants to know if there is other life out in the universe. Well, a 1960’s professor at Cornell named Frank Drake came up with the “Drake Equation” to figure out if it is possible to have other advanced civilizations in the universe. Are you ready? Without explaining his equation in detail, even with the most conservative inputs, the number of advanced civilizations just in our own little (100 thousand light years wide) Milky Way works out to be somewhere in the millions! Isn’t that unbelievable? Unfortunately, space being as big as it is, the average distance between any two of these civilizations is reckoned to be at least 200 light years. Basically, that means even if another advanced civilization knew we were here and somehow were able to see us in their telescope, they are watching the French Revolution and people like Thomas Jefferson. Yeah, doesn’t that blow your mind? The next time you are outside during the night time, look up at the stars and remember the majority of stars you are looking at burned out millions of years ago. Yet, the light is still traveling here. Can you believe this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the Cosmos?
This leads me into the story about the Hubble Telescope that was just repaired. I know some of you may feel your tax dollars could be used in a better way than spending 220 million in new instruments to repair the Hubble Telescope. However, I for one thank all of you, because I love space exploration and the more we can learn - the better. Plus, what good is it having a broken telescope floating around until 2014 when NASA puts the new James Webb telescope into orbit. I can’t wait to see pictures from that telescope!
Okay, it is time to get back to Earth. Father’s Day is this month, and although my Dad doesn’t get to read these messages, I want to wish him a Happy Father’s Day. I really wish I had spent more time with him when I had the chance, because I do love him and miss him very much. As for me, it really sucks that my chance to be a good father was taken away. Although, I guess when it comes down to it, I have no one to blame but myself. I reflect during my sleepless nights if my daughters will ever forgive me for not being there. Now that my daughters are being adopted by my ex-wife and her husband, all chances of me being the tiniest particle in their life have been extinguished. When it comes down to it, they have a father figure in their life, and I imagine they are happy so that is all that really matters. Who knows – maybe someday I’ll get to be in their life again.
I watched an important special about Farrah Faucett and her battle with cancer. I know this might sound weird, but would you all say a prayer for her. I have a new-found respect for her and the many people who are fighting cancer. After taking the Health Awareness course, I now understand how the cancer cells spread so fast throughout the body and why it is so hard to beat cancer. Let me just say it is imperative that you eat right, exercise, and keep your immune system at full strength. Then you might have a chance. Of course, there is always destiny to contend with too, but don’t get me started on that subject again.
On a different note, I want to share another example of how I don’t take anything for granted anymore – not even the little things. The other day I actually got to enjoy a piece of gum for the first time in nine years. I don’t recommend chewing the same piece for more than four hours either, but I was like a kid again for the first hour. It was Trident bubble gum, so I could blow bubbles. Yeah, I know it sounds pretty silly, but I enjoyed it.
Still no news on the decision from the Federal Court of Appeals, but I’m hoping the reason for the length of time is a good one. (Note: Michael’s June 2009 Monthly Message was written before the Federal Court of Appeals came down with their verdict in his favor.)
As I have mentioned in the past, the Department of Corrections in Massachusetts will no longer allow us to watch rated “R” movies. However, now the OCCC (the institution I’m in) has gone a step further and taken away our ability to view newly released PG-13 movies. They are claiming the local Blockbuster closed down so they can’t purchase any movie rentals. With that said, my movie recommendations may be coming to an end. Although, it probably doesn’t matter, because I’m sure most of you don’t base your decision on my recommendation anyway. However, if there is one of you who do take my recommendations seriously, here is my recommendation for this month. The movie is called “Bottle Shock”, and it is about California wines versus the famous French wines. I know it might not sound very exciting and it doesn’t have any really big celebrities in it, but I promise it is a good movie. It’s so good, you might just find yourself wanting to try a bottle of Chateau Montella.
My profound quote is “No matter how many times a story starts or repeats, it only ends once. Anything that happens before that is just progress.” (Lost)
Until next month, take care and remember; “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and light to all,
Michael
Thursday, June 11, 2009
1st Circuit Court of Appeals Reverses Michael's Conviction
Hi Everyone,
The news we have all prayed for and been anxiously awaiting as arrived. The Federal Court (1st Circuit of Appeals) has reversed Michael's conviction. Click to read the Court's decision.
I just got off the phone talking with Michael's appellate attorney and he is working on filing a motion with the district court to get Michael freed on bail.
As for any further appeals the Attorney Generals office of the Commonwealth of Massachusetts has three months in which to file an appeal with the U.S. Supreme Court. It is unlikely the Supreme Court will take the case but one never knows. In the event the Supreme Court refuses to hear the case it's over and Michael will be a free man which as we all know is long overdue.
There will be more news forthcoming as I talk with Michael and his appellate attorney, but I just wanted to get the news out to you as quickly as possible. I will be sending out more news via this blog as I receive it.
I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your prayers and support for Michael, and I know Michael multiplies that thanks many times over.
Dick
The news we have all prayed for and been anxiously awaiting as arrived. The Federal Court (1st Circuit of Appeals) has reversed Michael's conviction. Click to read the Court's decision.
I just got off the phone talking with Michael's appellate attorney and he is working on filing a motion with the district court to get Michael freed on bail.
As for any further appeals the Attorney Generals office of the Commonwealth of Massachusetts has three months in which to file an appeal with the U.S. Supreme Court. It is unlikely the Supreme Court will take the case but one never knows. In the event the Supreme Court refuses to hear the case it's over and Michael will be a free man which as we all know is long overdue.
There will be more news forthcoming as I talk with Michael and his appellate attorney, but I just wanted to get the news out to you as quickly as possible. I will be sending out more news via this blog as I receive it.
I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your prayers and support for Michael, and I know Michael multiplies that thanks many times over.
Dick
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Letter to William Paul Young, Author of The Shack
Michael wrote the following letter to William Paul Young, Author of The Shack, a truly remarkable book.
May 26, 2009
Dear Mr. Young:
This is just a quick note to let you know that after reading "The Shack" I have been enlightened to yet another level.
Since receiving The Holy Ghost in November of 1989, I have been deeply involved with my spiritual walk. And though, I often speak in tongues to my Heavenly Father, I was delighted to see someone has finally explained God, Jesus, and The Holy Ghost on terms that a child could understand. I must commend you---excellent job!
Unfortunately, I am currently serving a 35-50 year sentence in prison for something I didn't do. Regardless, I will always love God, and I would never blame him for my demise. There obviously is a good reason my path led me down this road. Also, I have passed this book on to other inmates throughout the prison so please know Mack's story will touch many more even in the darkest of places.
In closing, I want to express how grateful I am that you were able to put Mack's story into such a wonderful and heart touching book. The name of Mack's daughter "Missy" was extremely meaningful to me because I lost my first true love at sixteen who I called Missy. It felt good to cry tears of hope and love. Thank you so much for touching my life. I wish you, Mack and the rest of the family a peaceful loving journey.
Love & Light
Michael O'Laughlin W80371
OCCC
One Administration Road
Bridgewater, MA 02324
www.freemichaelnow.com
May 26, 2009
Dear Mr. Young:
This is just a quick note to let you know that after reading "The Shack" I have been enlightened to yet another level.
Since receiving The Holy Ghost in November of 1989, I have been deeply involved with my spiritual walk. And though, I often speak in tongues to my Heavenly Father, I was delighted to see someone has finally explained God, Jesus, and The Holy Ghost on terms that a child could understand. I must commend you---excellent job!
Unfortunately, I am currently serving a 35-50 year sentence in prison for something I didn't do. Regardless, I will always love God, and I would never blame him for my demise. There obviously is a good reason my path led me down this road. Also, I have passed this book on to other inmates throughout the prison so please know Mack's story will touch many more even in the darkest of places.
In closing, I want to express how grateful I am that you were able to put Mack's story into such a wonderful and heart touching book. The name of Mack's daughter "Missy" was extremely meaningful to me because I lost my first true love at sixteen who I called Missy. It felt good to cry tears of hope and love. Thank you so much for touching my life. I wish you, Mack and the rest of the family a peaceful loving journey.
Love & Light
Michael O'Laughlin W80371
OCCC
One Administration Road
Bridgewater, MA 02324
www.freemichaelnow.com
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Michael's Monthly Message - May 2009
Dear Family, Friends and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for May 2009!
I hope everyone is doing okay and enjoying spring this year. Before I get too far ahead, I want to let everyone know that I’ve got a lot to share this month so bear with me if it gets a little long.
Okay, we can’t forget how important it is to wish all the mothers out there a wonderful Mother’s Day. To be honest, everyday should be Mother’s Day, because whether we want to admit it or not, mothers are awesome. When it comes right down to it, there is nothing more important than “love” and guess who has unconditional love all the time – yeah, mothers are amazing. This brings me to wishing my mother the best Mother’s Day ever. Happy Mother’s Day Mom! My mother has been the most consistent thing in my life. No matter how good or how bad things have been in my life, she has always been there to help. She has always known when it was time to let me go and when it was time to nurture. I was definitely blessed with a great mother in this life.
One other thing, she also has helped me spiritually throughout my entire life, and I most likely would not be as spiritually enlightened as I am if it were not for my mom. Heck, she helped influence my decision to move to Delaware with my friend John, and he introduced me to Jesus and receiving the Holy Ghost. So, that got me off to a great start. She also never forced religion or spirituality on me and let me grow and learn at my own pace. Eventually my spiritual path brought me into the lives of Judy Cali and Diane Blaszka who also helped me with trying to find my purpose. However, I wasn’t expecting the “eye opener” of being thrown in prison. But, even after the dust settled, they continued to show constant love. Diane Blaszka has been like a second mother with all her kindness and thoughtfulness over the years. She has written me every two weeks for nine years! What a blessing it has been to receive words of loving inspiration along with spiritual information every couple of weeks. So, I am pretty lucky to have such wonderful women in my life. Once again, Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there, and thank you to my mom and Diane for all your love and support over the years. I am forever grateful that you both are in my life.
Now, I have to give a “shout out” to my Aunt Diane this month, because her birthday is on the 17th. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Di! I have to thank her also for showing love and being supportive throughout my life. Plus, during our phone call every week, she listens to me ramble on. Normally that would not be such a big deal, but if you know me, it is quite an accomplishment. Also, I have to give thanks to her friends Terry and Marianne, because they too have shown much love and support.
Alright, I’m going to shift gears for a moment. How many of you remember the Pillsbury commercial with the little girl who clicks her heels three times and she’s home with her mom putting the pastries on the table? Yeah, okay, I’ve tried it many times, but it doesn’t work. Anyway, I wish thoughts were that powerful, but unfortunately I don’t believe our thoughts can manipulate or manifest our outcome when fate or destiny is in the equation. Here’s a question for everyone: Does being positive or negative really make a difference if the outcome of your intention is already established? Now I know there are a million arguments about why it is important to be positive. However, let me give you a couple of examples that just recently happened where the individuals not only thought the opposite would happen, but they felt it in their hearts that the result would be different or so they thought.
Remember the captain who was rescued at sea after his ship was taken by pirates off the coast of Somalia? Well, during his interview with Matt Lauer on The Morning Today Show, he said he knew in his heart that he was going to die after the third day in the life boat. That is why he attempted to escape from the pirates but failed. However, regardless of his negative thoughts and feelings – he was rescued. The other example is the owner of the horse that won The Kentucky Derby “Mine That Bird”. The owner, Leonard Blach said, “I did not have any feeling I could win The Derby with that horse”. Despite the fact his horse was a 50 to 1 odd and was near the back of the pack mid way through the race, “Mine That Bird” won by more than 6 lengths. So, both men thought and felt they did not have a chance especially against insurmountable odds. Yet, fate or our true destiny intervened. This subject always requires much debate, but I will leave you with the thought: Do we really have free will if our destiny has to happen?
In the reading department, I have been reading quite a bit - actually two books at once. I really want to share about a science book I am reading called “A Short History of Nearly Everything” by Bill Bryson. However, that will have to wait until next month. For now, I took a break from all the spiritual books and just finished reading The Stephanie Myer Series about vampires and shape shifters. I read “Twilight”, “New Moon”, “Eclipse”, and “Breaking Dawn”. She did a really good job although I love anything to do with vampires and werewolves, I just finished watching “Twilight”, the movie which was not too bad, but I still like my favorite actress of all time (Kate Beckinsale) in the “Underworld” series. She is a vampire who falls in love with a werewolf. Although she was in “Underworld I” and “Underworld II”, she was not in the most recent “Underworld III” that was played by Rhona Mitra, another beautiful English actress.
I’m getting close to the end of this message – just hang on for a few minutes more. I was curious if anyone knew why they are scaring everyone in America with The Swine Flu when the regular flu strain that spreads through America each year is more than 20 times as dangerous. I’ve been taking a 7-week program called “Health Awareness” which primarily focuses on diseases you catch with unprotected sex. However, there is additional information about other bacteria, viruses, and funguses including some that are quite serious in a prison population like MRSA and the flesh eating bacteria. I’ve learned quite a bit about our immune system too. I must say, if you eat right, exercise, wash your hands regularly, and practice safe sex, you pretty much can stay disease free. Although, sometimes no matter how much you do, if it is meant to be (i.e. fate or destiny), there is nothing you can do. Yeah, I had to slip that in there.
Alright, I better end this message or it will be June soon. Oh, before I forget, Jewel has a new CD out called “Lullaby”, and she has a song on it called “Angel Standing By” which the vocals are phenomenal. I highly recommend it!
My movie recommendation is: “City of Angels” with Meg Ryan and Nicholas Cage. I know the movie came out in 1997, but it really is an unbelievably good movie, and maybe it will help someone figure out whether we have free will or not. Personally, I believe destiny rules – but that’s me.
My profound quote is going to be a prayer that was sent to me from a good friend so I thought I would share it with everyone. “From all that dwells below the skies, let faith and hope with joy arise; let beauty, truth, and good be sung through every land, by every tongue”. (Unitarian Prayer)
Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love & Light to All
Michael
Welcome to my Monthly Message for May 2009!
I hope everyone is doing okay and enjoying spring this year. Before I get too far ahead, I want to let everyone know that I’ve got a lot to share this month so bear with me if it gets a little long.
Okay, we can’t forget how important it is to wish all the mothers out there a wonderful Mother’s Day. To be honest, everyday should be Mother’s Day, because whether we want to admit it or not, mothers are awesome. When it comes right down to it, there is nothing more important than “love” and guess who has unconditional love all the time – yeah, mothers are amazing. This brings me to wishing my mother the best Mother’s Day ever. Happy Mother’s Day Mom! My mother has been the most consistent thing in my life. No matter how good or how bad things have been in my life, she has always been there to help. She has always known when it was time to let me go and when it was time to nurture. I was definitely blessed with a great mother in this life.
One other thing, she also has helped me spiritually throughout my entire life, and I most likely would not be as spiritually enlightened as I am if it were not for my mom. Heck, she helped influence my decision to move to Delaware with my friend John, and he introduced me to Jesus and receiving the Holy Ghost. So, that got me off to a great start. She also never forced religion or spirituality on me and let me grow and learn at my own pace. Eventually my spiritual path brought me into the lives of Judy Cali and Diane Blaszka who also helped me with trying to find my purpose. However, I wasn’t expecting the “eye opener” of being thrown in prison. But, even after the dust settled, they continued to show constant love. Diane Blaszka has been like a second mother with all her kindness and thoughtfulness over the years. She has written me every two weeks for nine years! What a blessing it has been to receive words of loving inspiration along with spiritual information every couple of weeks. So, I am pretty lucky to have such wonderful women in my life. Once again, Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there, and thank you to my mom and Diane for all your love and support over the years. I am forever grateful that you both are in my life.
Now, I have to give a “shout out” to my Aunt Diane this month, because her birthday is on the 17th. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Di! I have to thank her also for showing love and being supportive throughout my life. Plus, during our phone call every week, she listens to me ramble on. Normally that would not be such a big deal, but if you know me, it is quite an accomplishment. Also, I have to give thanks to her friends Terry and Marianne, because they too have shown much love and support.
Alright, I’m going to shift gears for a moment. How many of you remember the Pillsbury commercial with the little girl who clicks her heels three times and she’s home with her mom putting the pastries on the table? Yeah, okay, I’ve tried it many times, but it doesn’t work. Anyway, I wish thoughts were that powerful, but unfortunately I don’t believe our thoughts can manipulate or manifest our outcome when fate or destiny is in the equation. Here’s a question for everyone: Does being positive or negative really make a difference if the outcome of your intention is already established? Now I know there are a million arguments about why it is important to be positive. However, let me give you a couple of examples that just recently happened where the individuals not only thought the opposite would happen, but they felt it in their hearts that the result would be different or so they thought.
Remember the captain who was rescued at sea after his ship was taken by pirates off the coast of Somalia? Well, during his interview with Matt Lauer on The Morning Today Show, he said he knew in his heart that he was going to die after the third day in the life boat. That is why he attempted to escape from the pirates but failed. However, regardless of his negative thoughts and feelings – he was rescued. The other example is the owner of the horse that won The Kentucky Derby “Mine That Bird”. The owner, Leonard Blach said, “I did not have any feeling I could win The Derby with that horse”. Despite the fact his horse was a 50 to 1 odd and was near the back of the pack mid way through the race, “Mine That Bird” won by more than 6 lengths. So, both men thought and felt they did not have a chance especially against insurmountable odds. Yet, fate or our true destiny intervened. This subject always requires much debate, but I will leave you with the thought: Do we really have free will if our destiny has to happen?
In the reading department, I have been reading quite a bit - actually two books at once. I really want to share about a science book I am reading called “A Short History of Nearly Everything” by Bill Bryson. However, that will have to wait until next month. For now, I took a break from all the spiritual books and just finished reading The Stephanie Myer Series about vampires and shape shifters. I read “Twilight”, “New Moon”, “Eclipse”, and “Breaking Dawn”. She did a really good job although I love anything to do with vampires and werewolves, I just finished watching “Twilight”, the movie which was not too bad, but I still like my favorite actress of all time (Kate Beckinsale) in the “Underworld” series. She is a vampire who falls in love with a werewolf. Although she was in “Underworld I” and “Underworld II”, she was not in the most recent “Underworld III” that was played by Rhona Mitra, another beautiful English actress.
I’m getting close to the end of this message – just hang on for a few minutes more. I was curious if anyone knew why they are scaring everyone in America with The Swine Flu when the regular flu strain that spreads through America each year is more than 20 times as dangerous. I’ve been taking a 7-week program called “Health Awareness” which primarily focuses on diseases you catch with unprotected sex. However, there is additional information about other bacteria, viruses, and funguses including some that are quite serious in a prison population like MRSA and the flesh eating bacteria. I’ve learned quite a bit about our immune system too. I must say, if you eat right, exercise, wash your hands regularly, and practice safe sex, you pretty much can stay disease free. Although, sometimes no matter how much you do, if it is meant to be (i.e. fate or destiny), there is nothing you can do. Yeah, I had to slip that in there.
Alright, I better end this message or it will be June soon. Oh, before I forget, Jewel has a new CD out called “Lullaby”, and she has a song on it called “Angel Standing By” which the vocals are phenomenal. I highly recommend it!
My movie recommendation is: “City of Angels” with Meg Ryan and Nicholas Cage. I know the movie came out in 1997, but it really is an unbelievably good movie, and maybe it will help someone figure out whether we have free will or not. Personally, I believe destiny rules – but that’s me.
My profound quote is going to be a prayer that was sent to me from a good friend so I thought I would share it with everyone. “From all that dwells below the skies, let faith and hope with joy arise; let beauty, truth, and good be sung through every land, by every tongue”. (Unitarian Prayer)
Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love & Light to All
Michael
Saturday, April 18, 2009
April 2009 Monthly Message
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for April 2009!
I’m sorry for starting so many messages with news about the weather, but so far April has been one cold, sunless month. I started my jogging routine at the beginning of April, and let me tell you, it’s been miserable. It was sleeting during one of my three mile runs just a few days ago. I guess I shouldn’t complain, because it is only a matter of time before the heat gets here. It is just hard running in the rain when you have to come back in and lock up in a cell the size of a closet with another person soaking wet. Oh well, that’s prison life.
My transfer to MCI Norfolk was denied so I will be staying here at OCCC. Though there are a few good things here, they are becoming out-weighed by the growing difficulty of trying to stay out of trouble. The latest rule they want to implement is we can no longer go on any other tier to talk with another inmate or deliver a newspaper, magazine or book. This is in our own unit that we are locked in! There used to be a time where prisoners could just stay out of trouble and do their time, but not anymore – they want to punish us even more.
Alright, let me talk about something that is actually important. The earthquake that hit L’Aquila, Italy killed almost 300 people and left around 15,000 people homeless. In addition, it destroyed many ancient buildings that draw millions of tourists every year. Many of the buildings damaged in the quake dated from the Middle Ages or the Renaissance era including a famous bell tower of a 16th century Basilica. I saw one story where a dog laid on the remains of a collapsed home and rescue crews couldn’t get the dog to leave only to find days later, the owners were buried under the rubble exactly where the dog was lying. There was another story that was more hopeful when rescue workers pulled a 20 year old woman alive from a collapsed building two days after the main quake struck. That was pretty much a miracle – never mind that it was a five story building on top of her. And then, how about the 98 year old woman who was rescued from the wreckage alive and well! The only thing she wanted was her hair brush so she could brush her hair. Yeah, it seems no matter how you look at it, when it is not your time to go – it is not your time. Please keep the survivors and the families of those who died in your prayers.
Also, I know there have been a lot of unnecessary killings – like the most recent one in Binghamton, NY where a gunman killed 13 people at an immigrant community center. In addition, there have been the recent school shootings throughout our country and don’t forget the school shooting in Germany too. Believe it or not, on April 20th, it will have been ten years since the Columbine shooting in Colorado. Yeah, it is hard to comprehend, but we need to keep all of those families in our prayers as well. There was one death recently that made me realize sometimes there is nothing we can do when our time is up. I am talking about the simple skiing accident of actress Natasha Richardson who was married to the actor Liam Neeson. She was only 45 years old, and to think when Liam almost died in a severe motorcycle accident a few years earlier, she couldn’t bear the thought of raising her two sons alone. Now, she is gone and Liam is left to raise the boys without their mother. I tell you, life is tough – we never really know what challenge we will be given next.
This brings me to an individual who had to face one of the most difficult challenges anyone should ever have to endure, and he did it for us. I am talking about the Lord Jesus Christ. When you really think about it, he was murdered. When it is under the law, it is supposed to be okay. I will be thinking of Jesus during the spirit of Easter this year, especially after I read the greatest description of what it was like for Jesus to die on the cross. The name of the book is “Nearer My God” by William F. Buckley, Jr. There is a chapter called “The Crucifixion Examined”, and imagine that was written by Maria Valtorta that he quotes. I’m telling you – even the movie “The Passion of Christ” does not come close to what this woman described. It is so unbelievable; it is almost as though she was there from the first words of the chapter to the last words Jesus spoke “Eloi, Eloi, Lama Sabachthani!” Let’s not forget to personally thank Jesus for his sacrifice.
My movie recommendation is for those of you who (like me) don’t think we are worthy of a miracle. It is called “Henry Poole is Here” starring Luke Wilson. As slow of a movie as it was, I haven’t cried that hard since losing my daughters. The funny thing is after they showed the movie, I asked over fifty inmates if they watched it. Most said “no” because they thought it was an independent film and others thought it was just too slow and serious with a spiritual overtone. Even the inmates in my Bible Study Groups didn’t watch it! There wasn’t one person I could talk to about the movie. It made me think maybe the Lord played it just for me? Yeah, I know wishful thinking, but like I said, if you need a miracle but don’t feel as though you are worthy, it is a must see.
My profound statement is: “Only a life lived for others is worth living”. (Albert Einstein)
Happy Easter everyone! Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and light to all,
Michael
Welcome to my Monthly Message for April 2009!
I’m sorry for starting so many messages with news about the weather, but so far April has been one cold, sunless month. I started my jogging routine at the beginning of April, and let me tell you, it’s been miserable. It was sleeting during one of my three mile runs just a few days ago. I guess I shouldn’t complain, because it is only a matter of time before the heat gets here. It is just hard running in the rain when you have to come back in and lock up in a cell the size of a closet with another person soaking wet. Oh well, that’s prison life.
My transfer to MCI Norfolk was denied so I will be staying here at OCCC. Though there are a few good things here, they are becoming out-weighed by the growing difficulty of trying to stay out of trouble. The latest rule they want to implement is we can no longer go on any other tier to talk with another inmate or deliver a newspaper, magazine or book. This is in our own unit that we are locked in! There used to be a time where prisoners could just stay out of trouble and do their time, but not anymore – they want to punish us even more.
Alright, let me talk about something that is actually important. The earthquake that hit L’Aquila, Italy killed almost 300 people and left around 15,000 people homeless. In addition, it destroyed many ancient buildings that draw millions of tourists every year. Many of the buildings damaged in the quake dated from the Middle Ages or the Renaissance era including a famous bell tower of a 16th century Basilica. I saw one story where a dog laid on the remains of a collapsed home and rescue crews couldn’t get the dog to leave only to find days later, the owners were buried under the rubble exactly where the dog was lying. There was another story that was more hopeful when rescue workers pulled a 20 year old woman alive from a collapsed building two days after the main quake struck. That was pretty much a miracle – never mind that it was a five story building on top of her. And then, how about the 98 year old woman who was rescued from the wreckage alive and well! The only thing she wanted was her hair brush so she could brush her hair. Yeah, it seems no matter how you look at it, when it is not your time to go – it is not your time. Please keep the survivors and the families of those who died in your prayers.
Also, I know there have been a lot of unnecessary killings – like the most recent one in Binghamton, NY where a gunman killed 13 people at an immigrant community center. In addition, there have been the recent school shootings throughout our country and don’t forget the school shooting in Germany too. Believe it or not, on April 20th, it will have been ten years since the Columbine shooting in Colorado. Yeah, it is hard to comprehend, but we need to keep all of those families in our prayers as well. There was one death recently that made me realize sometimes there is nothing we can do when our time is up. I am talking about the simple skiing accident of actress Natasha Richardson who was married to the actor Liam Neeson. She was only 45 years old, and to think when Liam almost died in a severe motorcycle accident a few years earlier, she couldn’t bear the thought of raising her two sons alone. Now, she is gone and Liam is left to raise the boys without their mother. I tell you, life is tough – we never really know what challenge we will be given next.
This brings me to an individual who had to face one of the most difficult challenges anyone should ever have to endure, and he did it for us. I am talking about the Lord Jesus Christ. When you really think about it, he was murdered. When it is under the law, it is supposed to be okay. I will be thinking of Jesus during the spirit of Easter this year, especially after I read the greatest description of what it was like for Jesus to die on the cross. The name of the book is “Nearer My God” by William F. Buckley, Jr. There is a chapter called “The Crucifixion Examined”, and imagine that was written by Maria Valtorta that he quotes. I’m telling you – even the movie “The Passion of Christ” does not come close to what this woman described. It is so unbelievable; it is almost as though she was there from the first words of the chapter to the last words Jesus spoke “Eloi, Eloi, Lama Sabachthani!” Let’s not forget to personally thank Jesus for his sacrifice.
My movie recommendation is for those of you who (like me) don’t think we are worthy of a miracle. It is called “Henry Poole is Here” starring Luke Wilson. As slow of a movie as it was, I haven’t cried that hard since losing my daughters. The funny thing is after they showed the movie, I asked over fifty inmates if they watched it. Most said “no” because they thought it was an independent film and others thought it was just too slow and serious with a spiritual overtone. Even the inmates in my Bible Study Groups didn’t watch it! There wasn’t one person I could talk to about the movie. It made me think maybe the Lord played it just for me? Yeah, I know wishful thinking, but like I said, if you need a miracle but don’t feel as though you are worthy, it is a must see.
My profound statement is: “Only a life lived for others is worth living”. (Albert Einstein)
Happy Easter everyone! Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and light to all,
Michael
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Michael's Monthly Message - March 2009
Dear Family, Friends and Supporters
Welcome to my Monthly Message for March 2009!
It looks like March has come in like a lion and has remained a lion throughout. I’ve been shoveling some heavy snow this month, because it has been mixed with sleet and slush. I guess this comes with the territory. Regardless, I still love it.
Okay, enough about weather because I’m sure everyone is ready for spring. This reminds me of the Spring Equinox. We had a nice visit from Raven during our Saturday morning Native American Spiritual Circle Group. Raven (a Native American volunteer) usually visits once a month and always shares words of wisdom. While visiting, he told a quick, but very powerful story about a young Native American boy and the boy’s first day of school. He explained how the boy, along with the rest of the class had to stand so they could learn how to say “The Pledge of Allegiance”. The boy sat down and felt proud. He went on with the rest of his day and really felt good about his accomplishment. When the following day came, the class had to stand so they could say “The Pledge of Allegiance” again, but the Native American boy would not stand. The teacher was very concerned and came over and asked him why he would not stand to say “The Pledge of Allegiance” with the rest of the class. The boy responded with a confident, “I don’t need to”. The teacher was kind of befuddled with his response so she politely asked, “Why don’t you want to say “The Pledge of Allegiance?” He responded with a profound statement: “My word is my bond!” In other words, the fact he said it once was good enough. His family had taught him how important his word was. Therefore, it was not necessary to repeat “The Pledge of Allegiance” everyday. I liked this story, and I hope it touched some of you as well. I think we have gotten too far away from the importance of our word. I know I’ve been working very hard on keeping my word no matter what the venture. Although, I wish I had done a little better when I was still married and had a family, but it seems hindsight is always 20/20.
Speaking of marriage, did everyone hear that Tom Brady of The New England Patriots married Gisele Bundchen, the former Victoria Secret super model? It is amazing that she makes over 30 million dollars a year, and Tom Brady only makes 10 million dollars. I guess it does pay to be beautiful. I was just glad to hear that Tom’s son and his former girlfriend, Bridget Moynihan were at the wedding too. It’s more evidence that people can still be friends – kind of like Bruce Willis with Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher. However, I was surprised by their February 26th wedding date. I thought my wedding date of February 25th was unique, but I guess not. Probably California February dates are quite common. All in all, I hope things work out for them.
Now it is time to take a moment to thank everyone for writing such nice letters to Jack Dew at The Berkshire Eagle. It made me realize that I’m still loved very much even though sometimes I feel like I’m in the depths of Hell. Also, I wanted to let everyone know that I did not forget how thoughtful and kind everyone was for donating money to hire a private investigator. We were able to receive some valuable information, and if my decision in the Federal Courts in not favorable, the information will be helpful when filing a Rule 30 motion. I’m still hoping for Divine Intervention, and a good decision from the Federal Court.
Last but not least, I want to wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick’s Day especially all you Irish folk. I want to give a special “Happy Birthday” shout out to Diane Blaszka. I hope you had a wonderful day!
My movie recommendation is: “Eagle Eye” with Shia LaBeouf, Michelle Monagan, Billy Bob Thornton, Rosario Dawson, and Michael Chickless. It is definitely an adrenaline rush of action, but I don’t know how probable. Although I admit, I’m on multiple cameras at all times except for when I’m in my cell, and you guys would probably be shocked at how many cameras you are on at any given moment. It makes you think.
My profound quote is: “When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.” (Stephanie Meyer/Twilight)
Until next month, take care and remember: The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences.
Love and Light to ALL,
Michael O’Laughlin
Welcome to my Monthly Message for March 2009!
It looks like March has come in like a lion and has remained a lion throughout. I’ve been shoveling some heavy snow this month, because it has been mixed with sleet and slush. I guess this comes with the territory. Regardless, I still love it.
Okay, enough about weather because I’m sure everyone is ready for spring. This reminds me of the Spring Equinox. We had a nice visit from Raven during our Saturday morning Native American Spiritual Circle Group. Raven (a Native American volunteer) usually visits once a month and always shares words of wisdom. While visiting, he told a quick, but very powerful story about a young Native American boy and the boy’s first day of school. He explained how the boy, along with the rest of the class had to stand so they could learn how to say “The Pledge of Allegiance”. The boy sat down and felt proud. He went on with the rest of his day and really felt good about his accomplishment. When the following day came, the class had to stand so they could say “The Pledge of Allegiance” again, but the Native American boy would not stand. The teacher was very concerned and came over and asked him why he would not stand to say “The Pledge of Allegiance” with the rest of the class. The boy responded with a confident, “I don’t need to”. The teacher was kind of befuddled with his response so she politely asked, “Why don’t you want to say “The Pledge of Allegiance?” He responded with a profound statement: “My word is my bond!” In other words, the fact he said it once was good enough. His family had taught him how important his word was. Therefore, it was not necessary to repeat “The Pledge of Allegiance” everyday. I liked this story, and I hope it touched some of you as well. I think we have gotten too far away from the importance of our word. I know I’ve been working very hard on keeping my word no matter what the venture. Although, I wish I had done a little better when I was still married and had a family, but it seems hindsight is always 20/20.
Speaking of marriage, did everyone hear that Tom Brady of The New England Patriots married Gisele Bundchen, the former Victoria Secret super model? It is amazing that she makes over 30 million dollars a year, and Tom Brady only makes 10 million dollars. I guess it does pay to be beautiful. I was just glad to hear that Tom’s son and his former girlfriend, Bridget Moynihan were at the wedding too. It’s more evidence that people can still be friends – kind of like Bruce Willis with Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher. However, I was surprised by their February 26th wedding date. I thought my wedding date of February 25th was unique, but I guess not. Probably California February dates are quite common. All in all, I hope things work out for them.
Now it is time to take a moment to thank everyone for writing such nice letters to Jack Dew at The Berkshire Eagle. It made me realize that I’m still loved very much even though sometimes I feel like I’m in the depths of Hell. Also, I wanted to let everyone know that I did not forget how thoughtful and kind everyone was for donating money to hire a private investigator. We were able to receive some valuable information, and if my decision in the Federal Courts in not favorable, the information will be helpful when filing a Rule 30 motion. I’m still hoping for Divine Intervention, and a good decision from the Federal Court.
Last but not least, I want to wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick’s Day especially all you Irish folk. I want to give a special “Happy Birthday” shout out to Diane Blaszka. I hope you had a wonderful day!
My movie recommendation is: “Eagle Eye” with Shia LaBeouf, Michelle Monagan, Billy Bob Thornton, Rosario Dawson, and Michael Chickless. It is definitely an adrenaline rush of action, but I don’t know how probable. Although I admit, I’m on multiple cameras at all times except for when I’m in my cell, and you guys would probably be shocked at how many cameras you are on at any given moment. It makes you think.
My profound quote is: “When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.” (Stephanie Meyer/Twilight)
Until next month, take care and remember: The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences.
Love and Light to ALL,
Michael O’Laughlin
Sunday, March 15, 2009
March 2009 Monthly Message
It looks like March has come in like a lion and has remained a lion throughout. I’ve been shoveling some heavy snow this month, because it has been mixed with sleet and slush. I guess this comes with the territory. Regardless, I still love it.
Okay, enough about weather because I’m sure everyone is ready for spring. This reminds me of the Spring Equinox. We had a nice visit from Raven during our Saturday morning Native American Spiritual Circle Group. Raven (a Native American volunteer) usually visits once a month and always shares words of wisdom. While visiting, he told a quick, but very powerful story about a young Native American boy and the boy’s first day of school. He explained how the boy, along with the rest of the class had to stand so they could learn how to say “The Pledge of Allegiance”. The boy sat down and felt proud. He went on with the rest of his day and really felt good about his accomplishment. When the following day came, the class had to stand so they could say “The Pledge of Allegiance” again, but the Native American boy would not stand. The teacher was very concerned and came over and asked him why he would not stand to say “The Pledge of Allegiance” with the rest of the class. The boy responded with a confident, “I don’t need to”. The teacher was kind of befuddled with his response so she politely asked, “Why don’t you want to say “The Pledge of Allegiance?” He responded with a profound statement: “My word is my bond!” In other words, the fact he said it once was good enough. His family had taught him how important his word was. Therefore, it was not necessary to repeat “The Pledge of Allegiance” everyday. I liked this story, and I hope it touched some of you as well. I think we have gotten too far away from the importance of our word. I know I’ve been working very hard on keeping my word no matter what the venture. Although, I wish I had done a little better when I was still married and had a family, but it seems hindsight is always 20/20.
Speaking of marriage, did everyone hear that Tom Brady of The New England Patriots married Gisele Bundchen, the former Victoria Secret super model? It is amazing that she makes over 30 million dollars a year, and Tom Brady only makes 10 million dollars. I guess it does pay to be beautiful. I was just glad to hear that Tom’s son and his former girlfriend, Bridget Moynihan were at the wedding too. It’s more evidence that people can still be friends – kind of like Bruce Willis with Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher. However, I was surprised by their February 26th wedding date. I thought my wedding date of February 25th was unique, but I guess not. Probably California February dates are quite common. All in all, I hope things work out for them.
Now it is time to take a moment to thank everyone for writing such nice letters to Jack Dew at The Berkshire Eagle. It made me realize that I’m still loved very much even though sometimes I feel like I’m in the depths of Hell. Also, I wanted to let everyone know that I did not forget how thoughtful and kind everyone was for donating money to hire a private investigator. We were able to receive some valuable information, and if my decision in the Federal Courts in not favorable, the information will be helpful when filing a Rule 30 motion. I’m still hoping for Divine Intervention, and a good decision from the Federal Court.
Last but not least, I want to wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick’s Day especially all you Irish folk. I want to give a special “Happy Birthday” shout out to Diane Blaszka. I hope you had a wonderful day!
My movie recommendation is: “Eagle Eye” with Shia LaBeouf, Michelle Monagan, Billy Bob Thornton, Rosario Dawson, and Michael Chickless. It is definitely an adrenaline rush of action, but I don’t know how probable. Although I admit, I’m on multiple cameras at all times except for when I’m in my cell, and you guys would probably be shocked at how many cameras you are on at any given moment. It makes you think.
My profound quote is: “When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.” (Stephanie Meyer/Twilight)
Until next month, take care and remember: The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences.
Love and Light to ALL,
Michael O’Laughlin
Okay, enough about weather because I’m sure everyone is ready for spring. This reminds me of the Spring Equinox. We had a nice visit from Raven during our Saturday morning Native American Spiritual Circle Group. Raven (a Native American volunteer) usually visits once a month and always shares words of wisdom. While visiting, he told a quick, but very powerful story about a young Native American boy and the boy’s first day of school. He explained how the boy, along with the rest of the class had to stand so they could learn how to say “The Pledge of Allegiance”. The boy sat down and felt proud. He went on with the rest of his day and really felt good about his accomplishment. When the following day came, the class had to stand so they could say “The Pledge of Allegiance” again, but the Native American boy would not stand. The teacher was very concerned and came over and asked him why he would not stand to say “The Pledge of Allegiance” with the rest of the class. The boy responded with a confident, “I don’t need to”. The teacher was kind of befuddled with his response so she politely asked, “Why don’t you want to say “The Pledge of Allegiance?” He responded with a profound statement: “My word is my bond!” In other words, the fact he said it once was good enough. His family had taught him how important his word was. Therefore, it was not necessary to repeat “The Pledge of Allegiance” everyday. I liked this story, and I hope it touched some of you as well. I think we have gotten too far away from the importance of our word. I know I’ve been working very hard on keeping my word no matter what the venture. Although, I wish I had done a little better when I was still married and had a family, but it seems hindsight is always 20/20.
Speaking of marriage, did everyone hear that Tom Brady of The New England Patriots married Gisele Bundchen, the former Victoria Secret super model? It is amazing that she makes over 30 million dollars a year, and Tom Brady only makes 10 million dollars. I guess it does pay to be beautiful. I was just glad to hear that Tom’s son and his former girlfriend, Bridget Moynihan were at the wedding too. It’s more evidence that people can still be friends – kind of like Bruce Willis with Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher. However, I was surprised by their February 26th wedding date. I thought my wedding date of February 25th was unique, but I guess not. Probably California February dates are quite common. All in all, I hope things work out for them.
Now it is time to take a moment to thank everyone for writing such nice letters to Jack Dew at The Berkshire Eagle. It made me realize that I’m still loved very much even though sometimes I feel like I’m in the depths of Hell. Also, I wanted to let everyone know that I did not forget how thoughtful and kind everyone was for donating money to hire a private investigator. We were able to receive some valuable information, and if my decision in the Federal Courts in not favorable, the information will be helpful when filing a Rule 30 motion. I’m still hoping for Divine Intervention, and a good decision from the Federal Court.
Last but not least, I want to wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick’s Day especially all you Irish folk. I want to give a special “Happy Birthday” shout out to Diane Blaszka. I hope you had a wonderful day!
My movie recommendation is: “Eagle Eye” with Shia LaBeouf, Michelle Monagan, Billy Bob Thornton, Rosario Dawson, and Michael Chickless. It is definitely an adrenaline rush of action, but I don’t know how probable. Although I admit, I’m on multiple cameras at all times except for when I’m in my cell, and you guys would probably be shocked at how many cameras you are on at any given moment. It makes you think.
My profound quote is: “When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.” (Stephanie Meyer/Twilight)
Until next month, take care and remember: The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences.
Love and Light to ALL,
Michael O’Laughlin
Friday, February 13, 2009
February Monthly Message
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters:
Welcome to my Monthly Message for February 2009
It was a great moment in history last month on the 20th of January 2009 when Barack Obama became our 44th President. As many of you did, I watched his inauguration, and then later that night the Neighborhood Inaugural Ball. As impressive as that was, the part of his election that had the most impact on me was after he knew he had won the election on November 4th 2008. Everybody gathered in Chicago waiting to hear his victory speech. He took the stage and after the applause finally subsided, his first words into the microphone were, “In this defining moment, change has come to America”. Of course, the crowd went crazy with applause. I pulled out my note pad and wrote down what he said. I could really feel the sincere power in his statement, and I thought I might want to quote it someday.
This brings me to four days after President Obama was sworn into office. On January 24th, there was an article written about me in The Berkshire Eagle. The title was quite catchy “O’Laughlin May Get Freed Again”. Although it is not entirely accurate because even though I received a “directed verdict” from the Appeals Court (means you are innocent), I never actually stepped outside as a free man. Regardless, I was delighted that the article did not trash me with lies. Usually, anything written about my case always slams me and then leaves the reader with a feeling of, “well, he deserved what he got”. This time was different. Even though there were some incorrect facts in the article, the reader was left with a feeling of “maybe he is innocent?” Another thing about this article that pleased me was the fact that D.A. Capeless decided to lie in his quote when he commented about having discussions with the New England Innocence Project and stating that he had no problem with testing or retesting anything for DNA because he had nothing to hide. Let’s just say that could not be any further from the truth. It did remind me of President Obama’s statement except with a little twist: “In this defining moment, change has come to Berkshire County about O’Laughlin’s guilt”. Yes, I know there will always be people who believe I am guilty, but I truly believe the momentum has shifted. I am still baffled though – it always seems that it is harder for people to believe the truth than to believe a lie. Why is that?
I can’t forget that I owe a great deal of thanks to Dave Pelczarski and Dick Blanchard for making the article happen. Plus, I owe a special thanks to Barbara Cognetta for writing such a beautiful character letter about me to The Berkshire Eagle reporter, Jack Dew. That was a really nice gesture.
On a different note, I have two things to share concerning Mother Nature and all the snow she has been sending this year. First, many of you don’t know how much I love snow and the cold. One of the things I love to do after a snowfall is shovel. I’ve been offering to volunteer with shoveling since last November. They finally put me on the snow shoveling crew. When they saw how much snow I moved, they put me at the top of the list so now I shovel every snowfall. I know this probably sounds crazy to most of you, but I enjoy it very much. Secondly, I read an interesting article in Yankee Magazine about Bentley’s snowflakes. Wilson Alwyn Bentley, at the age of 19 in 1885, was the first person to successfully photograph a single snowflake. Of the more than 5,000 snowflakes he photographed, not one was exactly like any other one. That is pretty cool, and if you are ever in Jericho Village in Vermont, you should check out the Jericho Historical Society where you will be able to see the Wilson Bentley Exhibit with many of his snowflake photographs. The funny thing about me reading that article was the following day on my way to the yard, a snowflake landed on my navy blue hat so I was able to see the intricacy in the pattern of the snowflake. I must say, they really are quite astonishing.
In a quick update on my legal news, I am still waiting for the Federal Court of Appeals decision so please keep me and the judges in your prayers. Thank You! J
Okay, with regard to last month’s message, I apologize once again for venting my frustration about not seeing my children. I am sorry, but I needed to voice my feelings for my own well being. I hope none of you felt that I wished any ill will towards my ex-wife. Even though I do not agree with her actions to withhold my correspondence and gifts from my daughters (which is a violation of the Court Order), I still care about her very much, and she will always hold a special place in my heart. I just hope she finds it in her heart someday to tell the children it is time to reconnect with their father. By the way, if anyone has a picture of my daughters or any information about them, I would be forever grateful if you would send it to me. Thanks again! J
My movie recommendation is: “The Last Samurai” with Tom Cruise. Now I know what you are thinking – Tom Cruise as a Samurai? Please do not cast judgment right away. This film is truly a great movie about integrity and honor. It is one of my all-time favorites and once you see it, you will understand why they choose Tom Cruise for the role.
My profound statement is going to be a profound poem. You need to read it more than once to absorb its true power.
“Outwitted” by Edwin Markham “He drew a circle that shut me out – Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout. But love and I had the wit to win: We drew a circle that took him in.”
I wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day. I want to tell all the men who are reading this, try and do something nice for that “special” someone in your life this Valentine’s Day.
Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All
Michael
Welcome to my Monthly Message for February 2009
It was a great moment in history last month on the 20th of January 2009 when Barack Obama became our 44th President. As many of you did, I watched his inauguration, and then later that night the Neighborhood Inaugural Ball. As impressive as that was, the part of his election that had the most impact on me was after he knew he had won the election on November 4th 2008. Everybody gathered in Chicago waiting to hear his victory speech. He took the stage and after the applause finally subsided, his first words into the microphone were, “In this defining moment, change has come to America”. Of course, the crowd went crazy with applause. I pulled out my note pad and wrote down what he said. I could really feel the sincere power in his statement, and I thought I might want to quote it someday.
This brings me to four days after President Obama was sworn into office. On January 24th, there was an article written about me in The Berkshire Eagle. The title was quite catchy “O’Laughlin May Get Freed Again”. Although it is not entirely accurate because even though I received a “directed verdict” from the Appeals Court (means you are innocent), I never actually stepped outside as a free man. Regardless, I was delighted that the article did not trash me with lies. Usually, anything written about my case always slams me and then leaves the reader with a feeling of, “well, he deserved what he got”. This time was different. Even though there were some incorrect facts in the article, the reader was left with a feeling of “maybe he is innocent?” Another thing about this article that pleased me was the fact that D.A. Capeless decided to lie in his quote when he commented about having discussions with the New England Innocence Project and stating that he had no problem with testing or retesting anything for DNA because he had nothing to hide. Let’s just say that could not be any further from the truth. It did remind me of President Obama’s statement except with a little twist: “In this defining moment, change has come to Berkshire County about O’Laughlin’s guilt”. Yes, I know there will always be people who believe I am guilty, but I truly believe the momentum has shifted. I am still baffled though – it always seems that it is harder for people to believe the truth than to believe a lie. Why is that?
I can’t forget that I owe a great deal of thanks to Dave Pelczarski and Dick Blanchard for making the article happen. Plus, I owe a special thanks to Barbara Cognetta for writing such a beautiful character letter about me to The Berkshire Eagle reporter, Jack Dew. That was a really nice gesture.
On a different note, I have two things to share concerning Mother Nature and all the snow she has been sending this year. First, many of you don’t know how much I love snow and the cold. One of the things I love to do after a snowfall is shovel. I’ve been offering to volunteer with shoveling since last November. They finally put me on the snow shoveling crew. When they saw how much snow I moved, they put me at the top of the list so now I shovel every snowfall. I know this probably sounds crazy to most of you, but I enjoy it very much. Secondly, I read an interesting article in Yankee Magazine about Bentley’s snowflakes. Wilson Alwyn Bentley, at the age of 19 in 1885, was the first person to successfully photograph a single snowflake. Of the more than 5,000 snowflakes he photographed, not one was exactly like any other one. That is pretty cool, and if you are ever in Jericho Village in Vermont, you should check out the Jericho Historical Society where you will be able to see the Wilson Bentley Exhibit with many of his snowflake photographs. The funny thing about me reading that article was the following day on my way to the yard, a snowflake landed on my navy blue hat so I was able to see the intricacy in the pattern of the snowflake. I must say, they really are quite astonishing.
In a quick update on my legal news, I am still waiting for the Federal Court of Appeals decision so please keep me and the judges in your prayers. Thank You! J
Okay, with regard to last month’s message, I apologize once again for venting my frustration about not seeing my children. I am sorry, but I needed to voice my feelings for my own well being. I hope none of you felt that I wished any ill will towards my ex-wife. Even though I do not agree with her actions to withhold my correspondence and gifts from my daughters (which is a violation of the Court Order), I still care about her very much, and she will always hold a special place in my heart. I just hope she finds it in her heart someday to tell the children it is time to reconnect with their father. By the way, if anyone has a picture of my daughters or any information about them, I would be forever grateful if you would send it to me. Thanks again! J
My movie recommendation is: “The Last Samurai” with Tom Cruise. Now I know what you are thinking – Tom Cruise as a Samurai? Please do not cast judgment right away. This film is truly a great movie about integrity and honor. It is one of my all-time favorites and once you see it, you will understand why they choose Tom Cruise for the role.
My profound statement is going to be a profound poem. You need to read it more than once to absorb its true power.
“Outwitted” by Edwin Markham “He drew a circle that shut me out – Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout. But love and I had the wit to win: We drew a circle that took him in.”
I wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day. I want to tell all the men who are reading this, try and do something nice for that “special” someone in your life this Valentine’s Day.
Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences”.
Love and Light to All
Michael
Saturday, January 24, 2009
O'Laughlin May Get Freed Again - Berkshire Eagle article on Michael
The following article appeared on the front page of Saturday's (1/24) Berkshire Eagle.
O'Laughlin May Get Freed Again
By Jack Dew, Berkshire Eagle Staff
Updated: 01/24/2009 10:27:33 AM EST Saturday, January 24
Michael O'Laughlin has been convicted, freed and convicted again for beating a Lee woman nearly to death in 2000. Now, he is hoping to be freed again.
O'Laughlin, formerly of Lee, was convicted in 2002 of beating Annmarie Kotowski with a baseball bat in her apartment. That verdict was overturned by a state appeals court in 2005, which found there was insufficient evidence to support a guilty finding, but then reinstated in 2006 by the Supreme Judicial Court. He is serving a 35- to 50-year sentence in state prison.
O'Laughlin's case has now been taken up by the New England Innocence Project, a nonprofit that seeks to free innocent convicts, largely through retesting biological evidence like blood and hair. And he has filed a separate appeal seeking to overturn the Supreme Judicial Court's decision with a federal court, which heard oral arguments in September and could issue a ruling any day.
Alison Douglass, a Boston attorney with Goodwin Procter and the New England Innocence Project, said the group is still reviewing the case to determine all possible sources of biological material. The next step will be to seek tests on that evidence.
Berkshire District Attorney David F. Capeless said he expects the guilty verdict will be upheld in the federal appeal. Meanwhile, his office is in discussions with the New England Innocence Project.
"I don't expect there will be any difficulty (testing or retesting evidence)," Capeless said. "It really is just a matter of working out the details. There is certainly nothing about this or any other case that we would want to hide."
O'Laughlin's cause has also been taken up by a small group of supporters, who have rallied around a Web site dedicated to his case, www.freemichaelnow.com.
"There was no proof whatsoever, no evidence to substantiate that he was even at the crime scene," said Dick Blanchard, a volunteer who designed the Web site. "There was blood all over (the crime scene) yet there was nothing on him — no fingerprints, handprints, fibers, DNA — nothing. It is just remarkable."
At O'Laughlin's trial, the prosecution acknowledged that its case was built on circumstantial evidence.
Kotowski was attacked in her home at the Fox Hollow apartment complex where O'Laughlin worked and had a master key. He was using crack cocaine that night and had called several dealers for more, but had run out of money.
Capeless argued that O'Laughlin went into Kotowski's apartment to steal money but woke Kotowski, whom he then beat severely with a baseball bat and left.
The attack broke every bone in Kotowski's jaw and face and left her unable to remember that night. Her face and hands were rebuilt in a dozen operations over 18 months, but she was left with permanent nerve damage, little feeling in the left side of her face, and her hearing and eyesight were impaired. Kotowski, who was 49 at the time of the attack, was unable to return to her job as a schoolteacher.
Authorities found a baseball bat in nearby woods that had blood — and O'Laughlin's name — on it. Tests on the blood, however, were inconclusive.
The defense argued that Kotowski's estranged husband, David, had an even stronger motive to kill Kotowski.
The two were childhood sweethearts and had been married for 30 years when, in 1999, David learned his wife was having an affair, the defense said. The couple separated two months before the attack and, five days before the assault, Annmarie began discussing divorce.
Defense attorney Nathaniel Green argued that David had ready access to a baseball bat — indeed, he had once aspired to be a professional baseball player and had a large collection of baseball equipment.
When officers searched the husband's car, they found towels matching those in his wife's apartment, in a plastic bag in the trunk, reeking of bleach. The police, however, had treated the husband as a suspect but cleared him.
O'Laughlin maintained his innocence after the guilty verdict. At his sentencing, he spoke directly to Kotowski, saying, "I did not do this to you, and I do not know who did this to you. ... Someday it will come out and it will be clear who did this."
To reach Jack Dew: jdew@berkshireeagle.com (413) 496-6241
O'Laughlin May Get Freed Again
By Jack Dew, Berkshire Eagle Staff
Updated: 01/24/2009 10:27:33 AM EST Saturday, January 24
Michael O'Laughlin has been convicted, freed and convicted again for beating a Lee woman nearly to death in 2000. Now, he is hoping to be freed again.
O'Laughlin, formerly of Lee, was convicted in 2002 of beating Annmarie Kotowski with a baseball bat in her apartment. That verdict was overturned by a state appeals court in 2005, which found there was insufficient evidence to support a guilty finding, but then reinstated in 2006 by the Supreme Judicial Court. He is serving a 35- to 50-year sentence in state prison.
O'Laughlin's case has now been taken up by the New England Innocence Project, a nonprofit that seeks to free innocent convicts, largely through retesting biological evidence like blood and hair. And he has filed a separate appeal seeking to overturn the Supreme Judicial Court's decision with a federal court, which heard oral arguments in September and could issue a ruling any day.
Alison Douglass, a Boston attorney with Goodwin Procter and the New England Innocence Project, said the group is still reviewing the case to determine all possible sources of biological material. The next step will be to seek tests on that evidence.
Berkshire District Attorney David F. Capeless said he expects the guilty verdict will be upheld in the federal appeal. Meanwhile, his office is in discussions with the New England Innocence Project.
"I don't expect there will be any difficulty (testing or retesting evidence)," Capeless said. "It really is just a matter of working out the details. There is certainly nothing about this or any other case that we would want to hide."
O'Laughlin's cause has also been taken up by a small group of supporters, who have rallied around a Web site dedicated to his case, www.freemichaelnow.com.
"There was no proof whatsoever, no evidence to substantiate that he was even at the crime scene," said Dick Blanchard, a volunteer who designed the Web site. "There was blood all over (the crime scene) yet there was nothing on him — no fingerprints, handprints, fibers, DNA — nothing. It is just remarkable."
At O'Laughlin's trial, the prosecution acknowledged that its case was built on circumstantial evidence.
Kotowski was attacked in her home at the Fox Hollow apartment complex where O'Laughlin worked and had a master key. He was using crack cocaine that night and had called several dealers for more, but had run out of money.
Capeless argued that O'Laughlin went into Kotowski's apartment to steal money but woke Kotowski, whom he then beat severely with a baseball bat and left.
The attack broke every bone in Kotowski's jaw and face and left her unable to remember that night. Her face and hands were rebuilt in a dozen operations over 18 months, but she was left with permanent nerve damage, little feeling in the left side of her face, and her hearing and eyesight were impaired. Kotowski, who was 49 at the time of the attack, was unable to return to her job as a schoolteacher.
Authorities found a baseball bat in nearby woods that had blood — and O'Laughlin's name — on it. Tests on the blood, however, were inconclusive.
The defense argued that Kotowski's estranged husband, David, had an even stronger motive to kill Kotowski.
The two were childhood sweethearts and had been married for 30 years when, in 1999, David learned his wife was having an affair, the defense said. The couple separated two months before the attack and, five days before the assault, Annmarie began discussing divorce.
Defense attorney Nathaniel Green argued that David had ready access to a baseball bat — indeed, he had once aspired to be a professional baseball player and had a large collection of baseball equipment.
When officers searched the husband's car, they found towels matching those in his wife's apartment, in a plastic bag in the trunk, reeking of bleach. The police, however, had treated the husband as a suspect but cleared him.
O'Laughlin maintained his innocence after the guilty verdict. At his sentencing, he spoke directly to Kotowski, saying, "I did not do this to you, and I do not know who did this to you. ... Someday it will come out and it will be clear who did this."
To reach Jack Dew: jdew@berkshireeagle.com (413) 496-6241
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Michael's Monthly Message - January 2009
Dear Family, Friends, and Supporters,
Welcome to my monthly message for January 2009!
It’s a new year and though we may be off to a tough start concerning the financial stability of our country, I think 2009 will be a good year for many.
I’m writing this message on January 9th which is a very special day for someone close to my heart. It is my oldest daughter’s 16th birthday. I want to wish her the very best on her birthday, and let her know, “I love you and miss you very much!” Some day, I hope I’m given the chance to set things straight. My dilemma of late is how to settle the confusion that eats away at my mind each and every day concerning my children. It just boggles my mind that I spent 14 years of my life with someone who I thought was my best friend, only to learn that she feels it is more important for her to never speak with me or my family again and to never let me see, speak, or write to my daughters. Who does that? Also, how is that in the best interest of the children? It’s literally as if she is pouring poison in my wound. Yeah, you could say I’m confused to say the least.
By no comparison am I going through anything close to what Jesus went through. But remember when he was on the cross dying, and he was in so much pain. It’s almost hard to fathom. All he wanted was a drink of water to quench his dying thirst. Something, anything to trick his mind into believing somehow the pain would subside. But instead, a Roman soldier had the audacity to dip a rag on the end of a pole into vinegar and press it against his lips. Nice – huh? Well, imagine with no warming, no word, no letter – you could never see, talk, or correspond with the most precious thing in your life – your children. Then, you find out the person responsible for these actions is the one you grew to love and shared the most intimate parts of your life with. Most would call this betrayal, but to me, it’s something more. At least, the Roman soldier was ignorant with his actions and didn’t share most of his life with Jesus. When someone who supposedly loved you is intentionally cruel, it brings the situation to a whole other level. Anyway, with that said, I still wish only the best for her. However, I must say that nothing has eased my pain or brought peace of mind to me.
For those of you who happen to have children, you might understand why I am so frustrated. Let me just say when my daughters were born, there was such a bond of love in my heart that it was indescribable. I witnessed such love and innocence in my daughters that their beauty left me breathless at times. I never thought in my worst nightmare that I wouldn’t be able to share my life with them. In my opinion, there is no excuse for someone to take away my children especially for the sake of convenience. Life is short enough, and we never know when our time is up. Look at what John Travolta and Kelly Preston are dealing with right now with the loss of their son, Jett.
Life is a gift from God, and we need to respect that gift on all levels. We must remember it is the time we share with one another that matters most in life, even if it is only a simple letter or phone call. It’s the sharing that makes us one. The next time you are visiting the cemetery and are respecting those who have passed on, I want you to notice something on everyone’s grave stone. Pay special attention to that little dash in between the dates of when they were born and when they died. That “dash” signifies their entire life – that small, short little dash was their whole life!
OK, I probably should apologize for dampening everyone’s spirits. I guess I’m tired of walking on broken glass, and I have to admit I struggled this year through the holidays and my daughters’ birthdays. My daughters mean everything to me, and the fact I don’t even know what they look like anymore breaks my heart. Hopefully, someday that will change, but for now, I want to thank all of you for listening to me vent some of my frustrations.
On a different note, I want to thank everyone for all of the nice Christmas cards, pictures of your families, and for the gifts. It was very thoughtful of everyone, and I will always be extremely grateful for everyone’s kindness. Even though I’m in prison, I really do appreciate everyone sharing part of your life with me.
My movie recommendation is the new Batman movie “The Dark Knight”. The Batman Series has taken on quite a serious role. Also, I know most people think that Jack Nicholson was the best “Joker”, but I really enjoyed Heath Ledger. It is too bad that Heath will no longer be with us, because he was a great actor. So, if there are any of you who somehow missed seeing this movie, I suggest you get some snacks, turn off the lights, and plan to be captivated for two and a half hours by “non-stop” action with some incredible special affects.
My profound quote is: “Then Jesus said, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.” (Luke 23:34)
Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences….”
Love and Light to All,
Michael
Welcome to my monthly message for January 2009!
It’s a new year and though we may be off to a tough start concerning the financial stability of our country, I think 2009 will be a good year for many.
I’m writing this message on January 9th which is a very special day for someone close to my heart. It is my oldest daughter’s 16th birthday. I want to wish her the very best on her birthday, and let her know, “I love you and miss you very much!” Some day, I hope I’m given the chance to set things straight. My dilemma of late is how to settle the confusion that eats away at my mind each and every day concerning my children. It just boggles my mind that I spent 14 years of my life with someone who I thought was my best friend, only to learn that she feels it is more important for her to never speak with me or my family again and to never let me see, speak, or write to my daughters. Who does that? Also, how is that in the best interest of the children? It’s literally as if she is pouring poison in my wound. Yeah, you could say I’m confused to say the least.
By no comparison am I going through anything close to what Jesus went through. But remember when he was on the cross dying, and he was in so much pain. It’s almost hard to fathom. All he wanted was a drink of water to quench his dying thirst. Something, anything to trick his mind into believing somehow the pain would subside. But instead, a Roman soldier had the audacity to dip a rag on the end of a pole into vinegar and press it against his lips. Nice – huh? Well, imagine with no warming, no word, no letter – you could never see, talk, or correspond with the most precious thing in your life – your children. Then, you find out the person responsible for these actions is the one you grew to love and shared the most intimate parts of your life with. Most would call this betrayal, but to me, it’s something more. At least, the Roman soldier was ignorant with his actions and didn’t share most of his life with Jesus. When someone who supposedly loved you is intentionally cruel, it brings the situation to a whole other level. Anyway, with that said, I still wish only the best for her. However, I must say that nothing has eased my pain or brought peace of mind to me.
For those of you who happen to have children, you might understand why I am so frustrated. Let me just say when my daughters were born, there was such a bond of love in my heart that it was indescribable. I witnessed such love and innocence in my daughters that their beauty left me breathless at times. I never thought in my worst nightmare that I wouldn’t be able to share my life with them. In my opinion, there is no excuse for someone to take away my children especially for the sake of convenience. Life is short enough, and we never know when our time is up. Look at what John Travolta and Kelly Preston are dealing with right now with the loss of their son, Jett.
Life is a gift from God, and we need to respect that gift on all levels. We must remember it is the time we share with one another that matters most in life, even if it is only a simple letter or phone call. It’s the sharing that makes us one. The next time you are visiting the cemetery and are respecting those who have passed on, I want you to notice something on everyone’s grave stone. Pay special attention to that little dash in between the dates of when they were born and when they died. That “dash” signifies their entire life – that small, short little dash was their whole life!
OK, I probably should apologize for dampening everyone’s spirits. I guess I’m tired of walking on broken glass, and I have to admit I struggled this year through the holidays and my daughters’ birthdays. My daughters mean everything to me, and the fact I don’t even know what they look like anymore breaks my heart. Hopefully, someday that will change, but for now, I want to thank all of you for listening to me vent some of my frustrations.
On a different note, I want to thank everyone for all of the nice Christmas cards, pictures of your families, and for the gifts. It was very thoughtful of everyone, and I will always be extremely grateful for everyone’s kindness. Even though I’m in prison, I really do appreciate everyone sharing part of your life with me.
My movie recommendation is the new Batman movie “The Dark Knight”. The Batman Series has taken on quite a serious role. Also, I know most people think that Jack Nicholson was the best “Joker”, but I really enjoyed Heath Ledger. It is too bad that Heath will no longer be with us, because he was a great actor. So, if there are any of you who somehow missed seeing this movie, I suggest you get some snacks, turn off the lights, and plan to be captivated for two and a half hours by “non-stop” action with some incredible special affects.
My profound quote is: “Then Jesus said, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.” (Luke 23:34)
Until next month, take care and remember: “The key to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experiences….”
Love and Light to All,
Michael
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